Always at War (Completed)

Epilogue

*One month later* 

Hoseok's POV 

In the end, everything was over. We have no idea what happened to the Military Base, we guess they are all still there, but the war is over. 

We had to switch places every now and then, but we always sticked together. I can see that Amelia was beginning to feel better, although this month was difficult to communicate with her. I could tell that she was not the same, but at least she was starting to find herself and to feel again. 

The worst part was when we had to have the talk. Were our relationship was at. Believe me when I say that I didn't want to have that conversation but it was inevitable. I could tell we were drifting apart and I didn't want us to get any worse. 

So I started the conversation and she was so serious, so unlike her, but I knew it was because she was still recovering from everything that she had to go through in the Military Base. 

*Flashback* 

"I know that neither of us want to acknowledge this, but we have to talk about us." I said to her, as the rest of the guys were already asleep and we were looking at the stars. Something we are now used to every night. 

It was a time for us to bond again, but I don't feel any changes and it's stressing me out. 

It's been 2 weeks since we've been together on the run again, but she isn't really here. It's as if her mind is elsewhere and she really hasn't talked to anyone since she came. 

She looks at me then and I saw for the first time in these two weeks an emotion in her eyes. And it was sadness. So much sadness and pain in her eyes that just reflected her heart. 

"Do we really have to?" 

"It's killing me to see you like this Am." I said and this is the first time I've called her by a nickname I made up. "It's killing me to see you so empty. I tried to give you your space, but I also need you to understand that you can trust me. I'm your boyfriend and I'm supposed to help you go through the good and the bad times but I feel like you don't trust me like before." 

She stayed silent for a moment and I honestly thought she wasn't going to answer me. She was just looking at me, probably looking for something that she is trying to look inside of her. "I-I'm sorry." 

When she said that her voice cracked and I knew she was truly sorry. Although she didn't had anything to be sorry for. Since we were laying down on the ground, with our backs on the earth, I scooted closer to her and hugged her, putting my arm under her waist and pulling her closer to me. She let me, which also surprised me because since that first day she came back to us, she didn't hugged me again, nor any of the other guys. 

I felt her begin to cry, her tears staining my shirt but I didn't care. I'm just glad she is finally letting everything go. 

"It's okay to cry. It's okay to feel everything that you are feeling right now. Let it go." I whisper to her and I felt how her arms moved to hugged me back. I looked up at the stars, my own eyes watering as I felt my chest heavy. She has suffered so much, I'm just glad she is finally trying to let go. 

We stayed like that for what felt like hours, but I know it was probably just minutes, until she was able to calm down. 

Separating a bit from her but still keeping my hand on her cheek, wiping one of the last tears away, she pressed her cheek on my hand and I tried my best to transmit some security towards her. 

"How are you so perfect?" She ask me, as she was looking at me like before, looking for something she was looking for in herself. 

"I'm not perfect Am."