TWENTY TWO

CHAPTER TWO

        I'M FINALLY SITTING.
  
Moses left to get me something to drink and I take the time to remove my shoe and check my phone. Just in case I have messages or missed calls.

After we entered, he said he was sorry over a million times and I told him it was fine. Honestly, it is fine.
The only thing that isn't fine is that Victoria still hasn't called or texted. Which is why I'm checking my phone now, I'm hoping not just Victoria but all the people in my life had a hangover yesterday and just woke up.
That's an excuse I can forgive.

I would really love Victoria to remember, and my mum. They're the most important people in my life and it's really sad thinking I'm not as important to them as they are to me.
My mother.
The woman who gave birth to me. We spoke about two months ago
"My baby's turning 21 in a few days" she had said.
I didn't correct that I turned 21 last year, I also didn't correct that it was in more than a few days, I had more than a month left at the time. I can't be angry about it because I know she's not well, she probably thinks my birthday passed last month, maybe she even wrote a letter that she forgot to send to me.

Victoria on the other hand has no reason to not contact me at all. We texted two days ago, we didn't have any argument, I had even playfully mentioned that I wanted a car this year. Not entirely a joke, I wouldn't mind a car at all.

If anyone had asked me a couple of weeks ago if I cared this much about all of this I would have laughed and said 'it's not big deal' but actually being totally forgotten on your birthday is a big deal.
I know I just moved here a few months ago but I've had  conversations with people who know me enough to know I was born today, and none of them remembered.
Not Amaka, my nosy neighbor who came to borrow my toaster this morning. Not George, who I thought since he has a crush on me would greet me good morning with a bukay of flowers and a happy birthday card rather than the simple 'Good morning' I got. Not Chika, my only friend in the area. Not Tobi, though I understand, he isn't obligated to know. Not the stupid bus driver. Not any of the bike men. Not even my boyfriend.
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I'm not the type to notice little details in people's houses, but it's hard to not notice when everything seems different. Everything is newer and even better. I know it's the second time I'm here but I also know Moses has money and it's only fair that he makes this kind of change.
I'm a very lucky girl, I found love in a rich man. It's a big flex knowing he has more than enough and an even bigger flex knowing I love him and not just his money.

Taking in the beautiful living room, I decide to take a picture.
I find the spot with the perfect background and lighting and I pose for a couple of selfies.

Moses comes back with the drinks as I'm checking the pictures. I thought he was never coming. "Thank you" I say still looking at my phone.
"What are you doing?" he sits beside me. It's clear he feels bad and he's trying to make it up to me but he doesn't know how. Nobody really knows how to make up for forgetting your birthday.
"I took some pictures. Amina did a good job" I say showing him some of the okay pictures, I already deleted the ones I didn't like.
He's smiling as he swipes "Your dress is amazing" he looks from my face to my too tight dress. I doubt I'll be able to eat properly with this, I doubt I'm even breathing properly.
"It's way too tight" I say collecting my phone. He's seen enough pictures.
"You know what they say, beauty is pain" he's still smiling. I don't respond to that, I don't think I'm supposed to.
There's an uncomfortable silence. We aren't talking. We aren't looking at each other. We aren't doing anything.

"I should go" I say.

I don't mean for it to come out as me being angry but it's not making much of a difference; being bored with him or being bored alone. He seems to be bothered about something and as much as I'll like to know what's going on, I also don't want to. Today is a no negative energy day and if my boyfriend has issues and can't act like he doesn't have issues just for today then I can't act like I'm okay with it.

We haven't had an actual conversation since I got here, aside the uncountable sorrys. Now that I think of it, we haven't had an actual conversation since ... a long time. He hasn't been calling as much, or seeing me as much, not even texts.
It's been alot of seconds and he hasn't said anything so I put on my shoes and take my bag. I stand up and now he's holding my wrist.

"I'm sorry" he says and I hate that he is sincere. It doesn't look like he's lying. I'm not sure if he's sorry for forgetting my birthday or if it's because he's being awkwardly silent.
"It's fine. Everybody forgets birthdays" I'm not being as sincere as he is. Everybody doesn't forget birthdays, not one this important.
"No, no, it's not about today" I sit. I'm not sitting because I changed my mind and want to stay, I'm sitting because I'm wearing my heels again and I'll hate for my feet to hurt before I start walking. I sit because I know he has something to say, maybe more than just something. With the way he's looking at me, that pityful eyes he gave earlier when he opened his gate, I know it's something serious.

"I hate that I have to tell you today but I can't keep lying to you"

If there's one thing about Moses, it's that he doesn't lie to me. Ever. I don't understand what he's talking about. I want to ask what he means but I know he's getting there so I keep quiet and let him finish.

"Favor and I are back together" he looks anywhere but my face. He looks at his hand on my wrist, on my legs, on his legs, he even looks at the new and very beautiful table between the sofas.

Everything is wrong with that sentence. First, there is no Favor and Moses because the only two names that go hand in hand are Hannah and Moses. Also, they were never together so they can't be 'back'
The right way to have put that sentence would have been 'Favor is trying to get with me' and that's not something I should be angry about, that's not something Moses should lie about. He's an handsome, young, rich man, he's hot cake and i'm sure Favor isn't the only one trying to get with him.
"I'm really sorry but I really like her and..." he doesn't finish whatever lie he's about to say.

Moses really likes Hannah, me.
Moses really likes me, I'm his girlfriend not Favor.

"I didn't want you to hear it elsewhere... We're officially back together" he looks at me. I wish he never did because now I see that sincerity. He's not lying. This isn't what my head is trying to make me believe.
He's telling me he has a girlfriend now and it isn't me, he's telling me we're over.

Akinfenwa Moses is breaking up with me on my birthday.

Not that I'll prefer to be broken up with tommorow, but that's exactly what I'll prefer.

And I thought today couldn't get any worse.

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