TWENTY TWO

CHAPTER NINE

I HATE TO ADMIT BUT I'M SORT OF HAPPY HE'S HERE.
Sort of.

I don't know how he got in or why he's even here but it makes me happy to think he's here because he realized he made a terrible mistake and he's sorry. Not that it'll change things with us, not like they are even things to change with us but it'll make me feel less... bitter.

"who's this?" I hear George ask Chika.
Chika and Amaka are the only ones that have seen Moses, that explains why he doesn't recognize him.
"her boyfriend" Chika whispers back to him.

I want to correct them, I really want to, but I don't say anything or do anything. I'm standing at the entrance of my house looking at Demon Moses and he's looking right back at me, completely ignoring Chika and George.

"We'll leave you two" Chika says awkwardly. Or maybe it's me who hears it that way.
George looks at me like he doesn't trust Moses enough to leave him alone with me.
"You don't have to leave" I say. I don't want to have to be alone with him.

Moses looks at me like he's saying 'unbelievable', Chika looks confused and George seems relieved.

"It's fine, we were going to leave anyways" Chika insists
I ignore him. "What are you doing here?" I ask Moses.

It's now it dawns on Chika that something's up with us. He fakes a cough uncomfortably and I see him attempt to leave
"You guys are not the ones who has to leave" I say looking from Chika to George.
They both look like they're in an awkward position, well, they are.

I direct my question to Moses again, just in case he developed hearing issues since this very minute.
"What are you doing here?" I ask the second time.

It's funny how you can love someone so much and hate them at the same time. That's exactly what I feel for Moses; I love him so much and I hate him.

"We need to talk" he finally says after what seems like an eternity "alone" he adds quietly.
"I don't want to talk to you, and they are not going anywhere" I say immediately surprising myself.

Inside, my heart is breaking into a million pieces and I'm trying really hard to seem indifferent.

"What exactly do you want?" I ask. I just want him to get it over with and leave already.
"For you to understand" he sounds desperate.

Suddenly, he doesn't remember that he wanted us to have this conversation alone, he doesn't care anymore that Chika and George are standing awkwardly behind me listening to everything that he says.

"What's there to understand? You have another girlfriend now, I get it already" I tell him, he really doesn't have to make up any more lies to make the truth feel less bitter
"No, not that" he sounds even more desperate, like he wants to say more but I'm not letting him. I don't want him to say more, I just want him to leave.
"There's nothing more to understand Moses. It's clear, I totally get it, we're over" I tell him again and I see him rub the bridge of his nose, something he does when he's angry. He's angry? I've been interupting him for a while now, not letting him say whatever rehearsed speech he had planned and it's pissing him off, understandable but not reason enough for him to be angry. It's me who has every right to piss him off, me.

"Han" he calls and I see him trying to control himself.
"Hannah" I correct before he can say anything else. I know it's bad timing but I'm not going to let him call me Han, it's equally as annoying as Hans.
"Hannah, I'm so so sorry" I'm surprised he actually listens to the correction, that even though I'm completely taking things unseriously he's trying to keep up. I hate that seeing him try is only making it harder to hate him.
I shouldn't be seeing the positive sides of him, I should be seeing that he's been cheating on me and decided to confess on my birthday, I should be seeing that he's a Demon.
"What are you sorry for? What?" I ask
"How things ended?" I ignore that he answers me like it's a question, like he isn't sure if that's what he's sorry for, like he thinks he just gave the wrong answer to a quiz question.
"How are things supposed to end? I should congratulate you and Favor and be besties with you both?! I don't know what you want, how are you even here?! And now? I left your house early this afternoon and the right time to come after me is past ten at night?! Sneaking into my house like a thief! What the hell!!?" I'm shouting and I know it.

I'm really shouting, I'm really pissed.

"Hannah," he starts
"Get out!" I shout even louder and I hear Chika ask me to calm down, George's holding my shoulders also wanting me to calm down.
Moses looks too in shock to even say anything, he isn't moving either, or showing signs that he'll leave.
I can imagine how in shock he is, I am not a shouter, I barely ever raise my voice. Ever.

"Didn't you hear me? Get out!" I say again doing my best to reduce my voice. I don't think my best is enough because George squeezes my arm lightly
"I love you, so much and I really don't know what it was with Favor but... I'm so sorry" he looks almost scared.

Sincere, demon, desperate, scared. I'm not sure which is which anymore.

"You love me?" I give a sarcastic smile. First he tells me he 'really likes her' and now he loves me.
"I don't even want to deal with you, not right now. You heard me, get out" I add more calmly.
"Hannah, don't do this" he begs
"You did this! You!" I pause and remind myself not to shout "Would you leave or do I have to drag you out?" I ask
"I made a mistake, okay? It's you I want, I do like her but what I feel for you is..."
"Get out" George interrupts him very quietly and dangerously, he moves closer to him and I can tell he's going to help me drag him out.
"Who the hell are you? Mind your business" Moses says annoyed looking from George to me like he can't believe I'll watch him get dragged out.
George looks at me like he's seeking permission, of course he has my permission, I want nothing more than for him to be out of my air.
And then, George starts pushing Moses roughly towards the door
"Hannah! Hannah!" he continues to call as he's being taken away like he's worth nothing.

At least he's learnt the right way to address me.

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