Cry me a river || Blind Channel oneshots

Coming out

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Sonja Hokka, 16-year-old. Daughter of Joel Hokka.

Before we get to the actual one shot, I wanted to ask you something. Inspired by pride month, I could try something new. Personally, I don't ship any of the band members, but I know for a fact that a lot of you do. So... Let me know if you want me to write those. (I'm still not writing smut, sorry) Then there's one more thing. Male main characters. Would anybody like to read one shots with male (or others) main characters? Since I'm a female, it's easier for me to picture female characters. But if there's even one person interested in those, I'm more than happy to try. That's all, let's get to the actual story!

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Sonja was sitting on a cliff, holding hands with her girlfriend Ada. They had been together for a couple of months, they were happy. Nobody knew about them, though. Everybody knew that Ada was a bisexual, but Sonja wasn't out of the closet yet. The first person she wanted to know about it was her dad. She just didn't know how to tell him about it. Sonja didn't know how he would react. The girl was afraid of being rejected, maybe even being kicked out. Of course she didn't want to believe Joel could do that to her, do that to his own daughter. But you can never know what goes on in other person's head.

However, Sonja was tired of keeping the secret. She had lied many times, just to cover up her sexuality. Of course she didn't want to lie. She had decided that it had to stop now. No more secrets, no more lies. It took all of the courage she had left inside her to make that decision. Now ahead of her was the hardest part; coming out to her dad. Sonja wanted to do it as soon as possible. All she wanted was to get it over with. Then she might still have a dad, or might not. How simple is that?

Sonja had walked Ada home, like she always did. Then she headed home, ready to tell Joel the big news. The girl was nervous as hell. In fact, she was so nervous that it felt like she would throw up at any minute. Her dad never really talked about sexual minorities or stuff like that. That's why Sonja didn't know what he would think about her or how he would react. It was a fifty-fifty situation. He could be mad, or he could take the news well. The girl tried not to think about what could happen, as she was on her way home.

"Hi darling. Where were you?" Joel yelled from the living room as he heard her opening the door.

"I was with a friend." She informed.

"There's food in the fridge if you're hungry." He then added. She took off her shoes and prepared herself for the upcoming conversation.

"Uhm... Hey, dad?" She started carefully, getting her dad's attention.

"Yes?"

"I was... Can I talk to you about something?"

"Of course. Did something happen?" Joel asked rather worriedly.

"No. Nothing like that." She assured and sat down with him on the sofa.

"It's just... There's something I've wanted to tell you for a pretty long time now."

"Well, tell me then." He chuckled, trying to ease things up.

"There's this one person, who I've spent a lot of time with lately." She started, trying to find the right words.

"Yes. Is it a nice boy or something?" He suggested, trying to figure out what his daughter had in her mind.

"Not quite. A-and that's the thing."

"What is it? I'm not really following." Sonja didn't know how to say it. People always expected girls to like boys, if they didn't tell otherwise. It is kind of understandable, since you can never really know what other people think. Maybe it is somehow easier to just assume that. But is it right to assume that? Every time she saw her relatives, they would ask if she'd found a boyfriend. She just didn't dare to say that she would never find one. It felt like she was disappointing them.

"I've been thinking... Would you still love me if I liked girls?" She finally spat out. The teenager tried to read the expression on his face, but couldn't do that. Joel was hard to read. Was he angry? Would he kick her out now? She was slowly starting to panic as he didn't respond.

"You're joking, right?" He then said, making her shake her head slightly. She could feel a single tear sliding down her cheek, out of pure fear. But not long after, Joel wiped it away.

"Of course I love you, silly. I love you more than anything and nothing could ever change that. And I couldn't be any prouder of you." He assured and closed her into a tight hug. Now there were even more tears on her face.

"Who is it then? The person you've spent a lot of time with?" He asked curiously.

"It's Ada. She goes to the same school as me." She explained, clearly relieved.

"I'm so happy for you. When can I meet her?" Joel asked excitedly, making Sonja chuckle slightly.

"As soon as you want to. She's been waiting for that."

"I just want you to know that I really do love you, no matter what. If there's even one stupid teenager trying to tell you what you can or cannot do, I want you to tell me. Because I'll always be on your side. Always. I love you, kiddo."

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I don't know why, but I don't really like this for some reason. This has been just laying around in my files for a long time, and now I finished this in a rush because I realized that it's already June. Maybe that's the reason...