Stressed&Depressed

The Future

{April, 26 2015}

Lately I've been thinking about the future a lot and when I do it brings me a great deal of stress. It seems like everyone knows what they want to do with there life and I'm just here watching the waves roll in and out.

I've always told myself I've wanted to become a makeup artist and live on the road doing makeup and hair for bands. But everyone told me I'd never make it, so I changed my dream. Over and over and over again.

A doctor
A surgeon
A plastic surgeon
A therapist
A social worker
A biochemist

But that's not what I want in life, I don't want to be stuck doing something that will make me miserable and will make me fall into old habits. I don't want to be sad again. I know everyone tells me that would support me and help me, but I want to be on my own, I want to make it.

But I'm so afraid of letting those who have worked hard to get me where I am down. I don't want to see them get hurt if I don't make it. I want them to support me and see my dream as I do. Is that really do hard to ask for?