Heartstopper One shots

argument

tw: self harm, arguing
smut: none
I'm making it Nick's pov, because why not

Me and Charlie were in an argument over Charlie not taking his medicine, I was mad at him only cause he wasn't taking his doctors advice.
"Charlie you need to take these pills so you can get better!," I yelled at him, I hated yelling but I couldn't control my anger anymore.
"Fuck sake nick, you don't get it, you'll never get it! You don't understand and what if I don't want to get better?," Charlie yelled back tears forming in his eyes.
"Why wouldn't you want to get better? I'm trying to help you, and let me tell you it is so draining especially when you don't do anything about it!," I never really meant to make Charlie cry, or admit that.
"GET OUT!,"
"char -," I reached out for him but he pushed me away.
"I said get out now!," Charlie said while tears started to pour down his face. I left hating myself.
"Why did I say that? I'm a bad boyfriend I shouldn't feel that?," I said to myself, I grew even more angry, I needed to take my anger out on something. I went to the park, it was only 6 pm so no one was really there
"Arghhhhh," I screamed at the top of my lungs letting all the anger and hate for myself out.
I started crying, "fuck fuck fuck, something's wrong with me," I started to cry even more.
My phone buzzed in my pocket, it was tori who messaged me. "Shit," she only texts me if something bad happened to Charlie.
Tori Spring
What did you do? Charlie's crying.
Me
Farout, we got into an argument and he yelled at me to leave so I did
Tori Spring
Well that was dumb
Me
Yeah it was
Tori Spring
Can you come over?
Me
I can't, my mum needs me home and I think the last person Charlie wants to see is me, I'll see him tomorrow at school.
Shit I have school tomorrow, that means I'll have to see Charlie, I hope he's ok.
I arrived home at 6 15,
"Nick, your back I thought you'd be back a bit later," my mum said to me.
"Oh um yeah, me and Charlie got I to an argument and he wanted me to leave.," I replied while hugging my mum who had her arms out.
"Oh nicky, are you okay?," My mum asked letting go of me
"Yeah I'm fine, I don't know if Charlie is though, I'll have to talk to him tomorrow in form," I answered looking down "I'm going to go have a shower and go to bed I think," I said while walking up the stairs to my room.
"Okay, isn't it a bit early?," I heard my mum say but I ignored her.

I was lying in my bed trying to get to sleep but the afternoon kept replaying in my head, when I closed my eyes I saw Charlie crying. I finally fall asleep after another 10 minutes of overthinking.

"Quite hamlet 5!," My form teacher tried to quite the noisy class but failed to do so. Charlie still hasn't arrived.
After about 5 minutes since the class started the door opened.
"Ahh Charlie, you're late, go on sit down," the teacher greeted Charlie.
I moved my attention towards the window, looking how peaceful the day was outside.
"Hi," I said while Charlie sat down next to me.
He didn't reply which hurt a bit, but I guess I deserved it I hurt him.
Halfway through the lesson I had to ask Charlie If I could copy his notes because the teacher rubbed the notes off the board
"Sorry but can I copy your notes, sir rubbed them off the board," I whispered
"Sure," Charlie replied while shifting his book closer to me so I could read, I saw a glimpse of his arm that showed underneath his blouse. His arm was covered in small cuts.
"Charlie," I whispered again with worry, I was scared this would happen and it did, because of me.
"Yes," he replied back. I was about to say something but the bell went
"Sorry I'll talk to you later," I said while he walked away he just replied with an okay.
It was lunch time and I saw Charlie sitting with Tao, Aled and Issac.
"Charlie can I talk to you?," I said while I approached the table.
"No, Charlie doesn't want to talk to you, go away," Tao angrily spoke.
"Tao, it's fine, I'll be back shortly," Charlie said to his friends while he got up from his seat and walked with me to the art room.
"So what do you want to talk about?," Charlie asked me. I hesitated but then said,"Uhh I kinda saw your arm when you let me borrow your book, don't tell me you did, you know," I cautiously ended.
"What are you talking about Nick?,"Charlie replied panicking
"Charlie don't do this I know what I saw," I replied.
"Shit, you weren't suppose to see that," Charlie started to panic. He was pacing around the room
"Charlie, why did you do it?," I asked him while stopping him pacing.
"I uh, I, it doesn't matter it was dumb anyway,"
"Charlie, it matters, you don't have to tell me now, I don't want to pressure you into telling me, I'm just saying it's better to talk about it instead of bottling it up and then things happen," I trailed off not wanting to say what he did.
"Okay, I guess I can tell you," Charlie said, while I sat down on a chair, "well um I guess, when we got into that argument and I yelled at you to leave, well when you left I felt guilty and so I went up to my room and locked myself in, the voice in my head just kept saying these things, he hates you, you fuck everything up. I was clean for a month then this! I'm so dumb and I'm so sorry, I know you're just trying to help me, and I'm making it difficult I'm sorry," Charlie broke down into tears in my arms.
"Oh Charlie, I'm the one who should be sorry, I started it I should of just left it, but I was so focused on trying to help you and persuade you to take your medicine I'm sorry," I quickly said while kissing Charlie's forehead.
"Sorry," Charlie whispered
"What have I said, you can't say the s word!," I said while looking into his eyes
"Sor-," Charlie started to say but I beat him to it and kissed him. Out lips locked and moved in motions
"Nick, what if we get caught?," Charlie asked looking around.
"I honestly don't care Charlie, all I care about is you,"
"Not the cringe," Charlie laughed
"Well it's true," I pulled him into another Kiss. The Bell went for end of lunch.
"I guess we should go," I say taking Charlie's hand in mine.
"I love you char, and nothing's going to change that even if we get into fights," I kissed him again.
"I love you too," he replied smiling.

A/n: Hola!!!!!!!! I hope you liked this story :) also I'm thinking of writing a story about them saying i love you for the first time, but I'm going to stay close to the books for that one. Also I'm going to make one maybe when they go to Paris when their older , the city of love 😏😏😏

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