dear eddie, (Eddie Munson x reader)

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(Warning: insecure, not feeling good enough, sad self thoughts)

*after bath*

I dried my hair off looking in the mirror. I feel so much better. For many reasons... but anyways. Eddie was in robins room changing his clothes as I stood looking at myself in the mirror. I frowned upon my body. The slightest of imperfections made me not like looking at myself. (True story 🤭🤭😍😍✨✨)

I quickly covered myself with the towel as a sudden anxiety washed over me. I didn't want eddie to look at me. I didn't even want to look at myself right now. Yeah he may have just seen me but I don't know how to explain the sudden fear that overcame me.

Eddie: "knock knock" he said standing in the doorway with a smile. "How's my love feeling?" He stood behind me holding me as he buried his face in my neck.

I smiled slightly making sure the towel was staying up.

Y/n: "I'm feeling good what about you?" I smiled feeling him kiss my neck repeatedly.

Eddie: "well I'm feeling amazing!" He smiled widely.

Y/n: "I'm glad love!" I smiled as I watched his movements in the mirror. He rubbed my stomach lightly. He looked to be thinking about something. "What's wrong eddie?" I asks rubbing his hand.

Eddie: "just thinking." He said deep in concentration.

Y/n: "whats on your mind?" I smiled as he looked at me through the mirror.

Eddie: "what if your... pregnant?" He questioned.

I tensed up and eddie definitely noticed. Because now he was holding me tighter in his arms.

Eddie: "well we should wait and see if you get your period and we don't have to talk about it until then if you don't want to." He smiled at me.

Y/n: i took a deep breath. "Well I'm open to talking about what we should do in the meantime but after I'm done getting ready." I smiled.

Eddie: he slowly turned me around to face him as my arms stayed holding my towel. "Take your time love" he kissed my nose.

I smiled warmly as he looked at me for a few seconds.

Eddie: "ok I'll let you get dressed" he said with a goofy looking grin. I laughed as he shut the door behind him.

Why should I feel this way about myself when I have such a loving boyfriend. I don't know why. I just do. Look at me sitting here answering my own questions.

I snapped out of my thoughts and hurried to grab my clothes as I finished drying off. I walked into robins room where eddie sat on the floor going through his bag. He looked up at me sending a smile which I returned.

I walked over to my bag as eddie continued his search through his own bag. I pulled out some simple baggy jeans, a t-shirt, and a sweater. Quickly putting them on while eddie was distracted.

After everything was on I slid some black ankle socks on and stood infront of eddie. He looked up at me with a confused look.

Eddie: "yes?" He questioned.

Y/n: "You take the laundry out yet?" I said sitting down across from him.

Eddie: "yeah how do you think it's in our bags." He laughed.

Y/n: "right" i laughed rubbing my eyes. "Sorry sorry Im just drained."

Eddie: "from what" he smirked.

Y/n: "oh DONT even you know exactly what." I smiled.

Eddie: "i say it was worth it." He smiled widely.

Y/n: "yes it was." I confirmed.

Eddie closed his bag and reached over to grab my bag and set them together right next to him.

Eddie: "well now we wait for Robin to get back." He sighed.

Y/n: "i would say smoke but we can't hot box her house. And I'm out of edibles." I said as I fixed my posture as I grew uncomfortable.

Eddie: "Well i have some gummies." He suggested.

Y/n: i nodded. "I mean if you want to" I smiled.

Eddie: "hell yes i do. Come here" he lifted his knees up and spread his legs leaving enough room for you to sit.

I nodded and sat between his legs leaning into his shoulder just like earlier. He grabbed a bag out of the side pocket on his bag and took out four gummies. He popped two in his mouth.

Eddie: "open"

I opened my mouth as he put the gummies in my mouth. I chewed them until it was enough to swallow. Lowkey they taste bad but good at the same time.

Then I reached over in the pocket on the side of my bag and pulled out Eddie's ring. I quickly sat back in my previous position getting comfortable against his chest. I slid the ring on my finger and admired it.

Then eddie moved his hands to hold mine. He brought them to my lap and fiddled with the ring. He kept spinning it on my finger and switching which finger it was on.

We sat like this for a while as I enjoyed the soothing touch of his hands on mine. I found it relaxing. I felt eddie lean his head against mine and leave a few kisses on my temple.

Eddie: "i love you mrs. Munson."

Y/n: "and i love you mr.munson." I smiled as my eyes closed. No I wasn't going to sleep I was just resting my eyes.

Eddie: "do you want to talk about it now? Or wait till later?" He asked.

Y/n: "i... i guess now... i mean we have a lot of time so..."

Eddie: "we dont have to right now it's completely up to you." He said continuing to play with my hands.

Y/n: "no we Can talk about it now it'll be good for us to talk about it." I smiled as I opened my eyes to look up at him.

Eddie: he looked down at me returning the smile as he placed a soft kiss on my forehead. "Alright so let's talk about what you want to do."

Y/n: "well let me hear what you want first."

Eddie: "no no. In the end It's your decision so what do you want to do?"

Y/n: "exactly in the END, it's my decision. So right now I want to know what you want."

Eddie: he sighed. "Well I want to keep it if it's there. But if you don't want it that's fine too. We have plenty of time." He smiled.

Y/n: I smiled. "You want to keep it?"

Eddie: "well I want whatever you want but yeah I do. But it's not up to me." He rested his chin on my head. "So what do you want?"

Y/n: "well. I want to keep it... I just don't think it's the best timing considering your a wanted man and we are hiding out."

Eddie: "yeah that's true." He smiled to himself. "Robin would love the place it was conceived." He laughed.

Y/n: I laughed too. "Oh yeah she would be thrilled" I said sarcastically.

Eddie: "well we shall wait and see where this goes." He smiled.

Y/n: "yeah we shall." I smiled resting my eyes again.

(A/N: before u guys get mad abt wanting to keep the baby. I have an idea but just know you will not b having no baby! Now for people who rly want a baby I'm thinking of making another book that is going off of this one where u guys have that kid. But idk if I can yet bc I don't want to stress about writing two books so. Bear with me here 😭. But ily guys sm!!)