restrained affinity

━seventeen.

hyacinth
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That, the same day where everything goes with the flow of time. It is almost sunset and is almost at the time where you can finally get the smell of the outside world after a long time. Standing, in front of the mirror on the wall. With your whole body and inner self, reflecting within. Nedovtipa, you cannot find a way to face those people who looked up to your father. Now that he is gone, and how you would tell them right after. Will you tell them their whereabouts, or would you spare them?

"Oh how much I have changed." you mumbled as you watched yourself compassionately looking at your reflected self. A big change has gotten into you. You looked stressed and thin. Rather than being the same person from before.

"How am I going to face those people that served my father?" you asked. Hoping to find an answer for yourself. You felt disillusioned as you found yourself stressed and skinnier than before. Also to realize that you do not get to have an answer when they ask questions about you.

Not so long, the door opened. Immediately, you wiped those abysmal and reasonable tears. That fell from your eyes as you were completely baffled with your thoughts, alexithymia whilst. It revealed the sign for you to finally go and have the taste of freedom you've been craving for the entire time you spent inside the headquarters. But now, you felt metanoia wrapping your head. Giving you a hard time to choose. To just stay with them so that you cannot worry about what to say when questions come to your way.

"You there? We have to go, did you take anything you need here?" Ran asked. Assumed that you probably need some things inside that room as you were destined to live alone.

"I do not need anything. Just do what you have to do. Do not give a damn about my affair." you spatted. Switched up your mood. Having to found yourself walking towards him. Without anything with you, you walked there and just left the room without anything else.

Ran, followed. But led the way in a few moments. As he was the only one who knows where to go among the two of you. So you just go to where he wants you to go. Waited patiently, walked patiently. Again with you being protected by him. Despite of what happened before, he does not want that to happen again. Until the two of you reached the parking of those cars safely.

Arriving there you felt the slightest taste of freedom that you have been craving for. In a month you were in a cage where lots of bad things has happened. In which was the worst part of your life yet.

"Are you ready to go?" asked Ran. As you were crossing your arms in bash. You were filled with gauche and pride. Still you had hatred towards him, them.

"Go inside. We're about to go." Rindou ordered. Opening the door from the passenger's seat to where he will place himself. As Ran would be the one driving. You are assigned to sit at the back seat. And doors remained lock because no matter how much they trust you at their sister. They can never trust you regarding to escaping.

And yes, you, Ran, and Rindou had sat on your seats. A soon as the three of you got in. Few thoughts has ran over you. You're drowning with indecisive scenarios regarding you, and your father's disappearance. Including your father's death. You did not know how to put it, it's pretty much bothering your mind so much. You just wanted to disappear for a moment, even though you have disappeared for a long time now. And will come back as this.

But there's one thing you'll be sure of. You cannot lie to those people who once serve your father. The moment you get to tell them that you were not a real Haitani, and your father is deceased. They would reach out reasonable criticism and unreal fault. They would send you critique that would definitely drop you to the court. Something you must handle. But in different circumstances, you might get to be understood by them since most of them likes you. But there is still a high possibility that you'll take the blame.