restrained affinity

━sixteen.

anagapesis
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You woke up in such a nice sleep for such a long time. Which was confusing since you never actually wanted to sleep. No. Not on that kind of place. As soon as you opened your eyes. The first thing you remembered is that you played chess with the leader of the group. The group the you hated to much. Including your brothers. You can never forgive them for what they did that happened to separate you and your father. You felt so betrayed.

But then you realized that yesterday was a reason why you should see them differently. That they just want to do what makes them happy. Which is so selfish of them. Although, despite everything that their leader had shown you. You still won't find a valuable reason to finally forgive them and see them the way they see themselves.

Or was it because you were envious about how they get to do what they want. But you couldn't? Considering the fact that you have lived your entire life following your father's orders. Who was not even your real dad. You were living in a lie this whole time. Which you did not exactly know if you can forgive him. Or not.

Your brother. Ran, told you yesterday that later before the sunsets. You get to leave the headquarters. And finally show them what your purpose was about. Something that would be a total crime for you to show them something that does not belong to you.

"This is it. The day where I can finally get a taste of freedom for almost a month." you murmured. Hugging your knees tight as the image of your father appears in sight. You wondered if you were hallucinating to actually see a figure of your dead adoptive father in front of you.

"Father?" you mumbled. Assuming that you are actually talking to him. Or you were just losing your mind after all those incidents that occurred. Which was too hard for you. Considering the fact that you are adopted and was kidnapped by your beloved brothers.

"Father! I'm so sorry!" you pleaded. Running after him and embraced him with tears. You wanted to apologize by how you had done nothing to help him on his situation. You cried with full of regrets and remorse. You felt culpable as you were blaming yourself on what happened to him.

"Now. Now. Don't cry. It will wipe off your beauty." he spoke. caressing your head as you cried on his chest. You didn't care whether you're hallucinating or not. But you just needed his embrace.

"Father.. I miss you.." you mumbled.

"It has only been two days.. right?" he asked. That question made you look up to him with tears. You could barely hang up on the life you were dealing. And you missed him so much.

"I know.. But. Why did you come and talk to me just now?" you asked. Baffled. You were confused by how you are eventually talking to him when he is deceased.

"I didn't. It's all just your imagination."

"Huh." you wondered. As he slowly disappeared on your sight. Your tears started to stop when you realized that he wasn't actually talking to you. But he did respond. So that makes you wonder if it is just your mind playing with you.

"Hey, y/n? Is someone there with you?" someone asked as they entered inside the room. Asking you if you were with someone since you were talking.

It was Rindou. As soon as he stepped inside. His face was both confused and worried as he saw you in tears again. Since you were talking earlier, he assumed that someone was there to make you cry. But not just that, he doubt that no one was actually there to make you cry since you were an adult. There's no reason for you to cry without a reason. He did not see any bruises as well. That makes him wonder what is it you were crying about and why are you talking alone.