Sturniolo Triplets Oneshots

it's getting bad again (Nick, Matt and Chris)

This story contains Self-harm and talks about blood if you don't like those types of stories PLEASE skip this one I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable!!

TW: Self-harm and panic attacks

The triples are in LA and you're stuck at their house alone. You occasionally facetime them but you can feel like you're falling down into a hole and your mental health really plummeted and you do the unthinkable. 

Y/n POV: the triplets have been in LA for about a week and I'm already struggling. Nick would remind me to take my medication, Matt would always calm me down from a panic attack, and Chris would put a smile on my face even though I felt like shit. They have truly helped me over the years. But now that there gone I don't know I feel like a piece of me is gone? I don't know that seems dumb. It's about 8 pm and nick facetime me. "HI y/n! how are you doing!!" nick asks cheerfully. I cant lead on that I'm not doing well I don't want them to leave their trip because of me. "I'm doing good! how are you guys doing?" I ask. "we're doing pretty well, it's been very busy here," Matt says "well I'm glad you guys are having fun," I say smiling. We ended up talking for 2 hours and then the boys had to leave for a meeting. God do I miss them. 

(Time skips to 2 am EST)

I wake up feeling the worst I have ever felt. My chest is tight and I hysterically crying. Here we go again another panic attack. But this time I cant get it under control usually matt would hold my hands and hug me tight but he's not here. This is when I remember I haven't taken my meds for a week. I still can't breathe. Now I'm hyperventilating and getting completely irrational thoughts. I can't do it now I've been SA clean for 3 months. But the lurking feeling Is in my stomach "if I do it once ill feel better" I think in my head. But I cant relapse Nick, matt and Chris would be mad. somehow during my irrational thoughts, I text the boys. before everything went black

Y/N 💫
I'm sorry, can't do this anymore 

Nick 💚
what do you mean? for what honey?

Matt ❤️
y/n? what are you sorry about?

Chris💙
Y/N??

Nicks POV: I ran into Chris and Matts's room. "guys what does this text mean??" I ask in a panic. I just received a text from y/n saying she's sorry and cant does it anymore. And ever since then she hasn't responded to calls or texts. "I don't know but I'm really worried," matt says his hands shaking.  "matt it's okay," Chris says grabbing his hands. "I'm going to book a flight home I know it's not ideal but if it's what I think it is she needs help right now," I say opening my computer. 

Chris's POV: I started packing my bag to go back home. I stuffed everything into my suitcase. It only took me 20 minutes after I finish packing and walk back into Matt's room where nick was ordering tickets. And Matt was sitting on the bed still shaking and tears falling out of his eyes. "matt it's okay we will get home and she will just be asleep that's all that happened" I say crouched down to look at matt. "okay" he says wiping his tears. 

Third-person POV: Nick finally got tickets to fly out at 5 am the next morning he went into his room to pack his belongings and Matt finally calmed down and packed his stuff. None of them could sleep that night. Matt stayed up all night calling y/n with no answer. Nick stayed up staring at the floor thinking the worst. And Chris just sat in his room zoning out at the stars. finally, 3 am rolls around and they all pack into Matt's van to head to the airport. 

Matts's POV: As we all pack into the car I have to drive because neither nick nor Chris has their driver's license. Which isn't good because ima already anxious about y/n and now I have to drive. We all sit in silence at the airport and we arrive there safely. After a long hour were all sitting on the airplane I try and text y/n once more but the message doesn't go through. 

(Time skips a few hours)

Nicks POV: after a long few hours of travel we arrive home. I was the first one out of the car none of us grabbed our bags we rush up the stairs and unlock the door. I walk into my room, she's not there until I hear a scream. Its matt. Chris and I run into his room and see y/n on the ground laying in a pool of blood. I immediately sit next to her and check for a pulse. "SHE HAS A PULSE GET SOME TOWELS" I scream at Chris and matt. Chris runs out to get towels but matt just walks out and goes into Chris's room. 

Third-person POV: Chris comes back with the towel and nick and Chris put the towel under y/n and nick starts to wrap gauze and bandaid around the cuts on her wrists. Luckily the cuts were dried so she wasn't bleeding anymore. "MATT gets in here we need help" Chris yells with tears forming in his eyes. "your okay honey you are fine," Nick says to y/n who is still unconscious. Nick and Chris get the bloody shirt off her and take off her shorts. they carry her to Nick's room and lay her on Nick's bed. "I'm going to go and get matt," Chris says. "no leave him he needs a few minutes," nick says dressing y/n's wounds. After half an hour Nick has taken care of y/n wrists and wrapped her in a blanket so she's not as exposed. and left her to wake up. Nick walks out of his room leaving the door open just in case anything happens. He walks into Chris's room to see Matt sitting on his couch holding his head and crying. Nick walks over to him and holds him tight. "it's my fault" matt says crying. "no it's not she was in a dark place and this is her coping mechanism" nick says tearing up. They sit there for a few minutes until Chris yells for them to get to Nick's room. 

Y/N POV: I slowly opened my eyes to see a green room, it was nicks room? how the fuck did I get here? I try to sit up but y arms are wrapped in 10 layers of gauze. Fuck someone found me. I look around and see Chris sitting in Nick's chair crying.  "Chris?" I look at him. I watch him sit up and run out the door to yell for matt and nick. They all-round back into the room. and sit next to me. I can see that they were crying. I can't even make eye contact with them. I'm so embarrassed that they had to find me like that. "I'm sorry," I say tearing up. "stop doesn't apologize," nick says holding my hand. a few minutes go by and Chris says something "would you like something to eat?" he asks me. "no" I say looking away from him. "when did you last eat?" matt asks. I ignore him because whatever answer is said will be a lie or he will be mad so I just don't answer. I sit up and realize I'm only in a bra and underwear. I grab the blanket and cover myself. "where are my clothes??" I ask in a panic. "we had to take them off you were drenched in blood" nick says walking over to his closet, "here" nick says handing me a hoodie and sweatpants. "we can leave while you get dressed" matt says walking out with nick. I got into the sweatpants but I can't get the hoodie on the wraps are thick and I can't move my arms very well. I end up opening the door and asking for some help. matt walks over and carefully puts my arms into the sleeves and adjusts them to make them comfortable. he kisses me on the forehead and walks back to the fridge. 

Chris's POV: I watched her walk over to the counter and sit down, she still looked very pale I poured her a cup of orange juice. I finally finished the eggs and banana for y/n she didn't really eat just took a few bites of banana. "are you feeling alright?" I ask. "yeah I'm fine just a bit dizzy," she says looking at me.  "here let's go lay down for a bit," Nick says grabbing one of my arms and Chris grabbed my other one. Matt walked ahead of us and moved the blanket to make room for me. they set me down on the left side of the bed and put the blanket around me. "okay we will be right outside if you need anything" matt says walking away. "matt can you stay with me I don't want to be alone right now" I say tearing up. "of course anything for you" matt says laying down next to me. He wraps his arms around my back and I'm facing him he's facing me. I barry my head into his chest and cry. He holds me close and I feel his head rest on my head. "you know we all love you so much" matt says softly. "I know I don't know why I did what I did" I whisper. "it doesn't matter just please talk to us if your feel urges I don't want to see you like this again,  ok? matt says looking at me. "yeah I promise" I say laying back into his chest. Eventually, we both fall asleep laying together.