Eating disorders (Nick, Matt, and Chris)

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by rivervix03

by rivervix03

TRIGGER WARNING: EATING DISORDER, MENTAL HEALTH, PANIC ATTACKS.

A/N: I'm not a big fan of this story, IDK why it's not sitting right with me :(

Backstory: y/n is struggling with binge eating and restricting eating, and she's going through a really brought time with her mental health.

Y/N POV: It was 12 am I was laying in bed sobbing, I just had to reset 'i am sober again. This is the 4th time in the past 2 days. I can't fucking do it, I always end up binge eating then restricting food for the next day or so, and then I binge again. It's a never-ending cycle. I just scream into my pillow hoping the pain will go away. That's when my phone rings.

The van squad 🚐

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Matty b 🌺
hey, y/n wanna hang out tonight?

y/n 🪶
sorry, I can't, be busy tonight :/

Chris 🦥
doing what? sitting in bed? Please come over we miss you!!

Nick 🏳️‍🌈
Guys! stop peer pressuring if she's busy then we can hang out another night!

y/n 🪶
no, no it's alright I can come over can yall pick me up in like an hour?

Matty b 🌺
yes ma'am! see you in an hour!

Chris 🦥
see ya!

Y/N POV: ugh why did I just agree to that? well, let's go get ready. I sit up and walk over to my dresser to grab a pair of spandex shorts and a hoodie. I take a quick shower t wash off the 3 day-old makeup. I quickly get dressed and put on some light makeup. That's when I hear the knock on the door. I grab my tote bag and phone and then walk downstairs. I open the door to be welcomed by Chris. "hey! you ready" he asks. "yeah!" I say following him down the stairs. We both hop into the car to see nick sitting in the back and matt driving. "hey y/n!" matt says as he backs out of my driveway.

Time skips 10 minnuts

We all arrive at the sturniolo's house around 1:12 am. We all walk inside I set my bag down on the chair on the island. That's when my stomach made a loud noise. "hey sounds like you are hungry yall want to get food?" nick asks. "hell yeah!" matt says opening the fridge. "ill makes pasta!" Chris says opening the pantry. "um I'm not really hungry right now" I say. "are you sure?" nick asks walking over to me. "yeah" I say looking at the floor. I can feel Nick's eyes lock on me, I quickly excuse myself to the washroom lock the door, and sit on the floor.

NICKS POV: I just stand there with a concerned look at y/n and then she walks to the bathroom. "what the hell?" Chris says. "is she ok?" matt asks walking over to me. "I don't know I'm gonna give her a few minutes," I say walking to the chair.

A few minutes pass

"hey guys the pasta is done," Chris says straining the pasta. "what about y/n?" matt asks me. "ill go check on her," I say getting up from the counter. I walk over to the bathroom door which is still locked. I knock a few times "y/n? hey, food ready" I say. She doesn't respond.

Y/N POV: I'm completely spaced out in my own thoughts until I hear a knock, it's nick. I don't respond to him I can't face him right now, makeup rolling down my face and none of them know about my eating disorder. I can't put that pressure on them. "Y/N please say something or let me vom in I wanna make sure you're ok??" nick says panicking. That's when I hear Chris and matt approach the door. "y/n?" matt says. "if you want just one of us can come in if that makes you feel more comfortable??" matt says.

I let out a sigh, I really don't want to talk to them but I know none of them will leave unless I talk to them. "ugh fine, matt can you come in here?" I say unlocking the door. "Yeah of course," he says opening the door. He sits down across from me and I hear Chris and nick walk away. "So what up? why are you crying?" he says wiping my tears with his sleeve. "I've had a bad day," I say biting my nails. "elaborate hun I can see you haven't had a good day," Matt says looking at me. "fine I relapsed with my binge waiting for disorder a few hours ago and I'm too scared to eat because of the fear of relapsing again but I'm really hungry." I say chocking up on tears. "aw y/n it's okay," he says holding me into a hug. Once I stop crying I pull away from him wiping my face. "here let's make a deal, we can go get some dinner, and ill be by your side while you eat okay?" matt says. "ok" I say getting up.

I clean my face up and then walk back to the kitchen to see Chris and nick eating. Matt gives nick and Chris some updates and they walk over and hug me tight. Nick gets me a small bowl of pasta and sets it on the table. I sit down just looking at it. "you can do it" chis says squeezing my arm. I pick up the fork my arm is shaking I feel a tear fall down my face. I take the smallest bite of the food, tears now streaming down my face. I can feel matt come over to me giving me a big hug. I take a few more small bites, but it's too much I set the fork down. "I'm sorry I can't do anymore." I say wiping my face. "sweetheart it's okay you ate a bit and that's what matters." nick says. The 3 boys hold me in a 4-way hug for a few minutes until I stop crying. "I love you guys," I say hugging them tightly. After a few minutes, we all pile onto the couch to watch a movie. None of us stayed awake long because it was 3 am but I laid on Chris's shoulder with a blanket around us.

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completed on 7/18/22