Only With You ♡ KinnBig

homophobic love

Bigs pov:

It's been seven month since I started to work at main family as bodyguard, I can't say that it was fun, my mental health is destroyed.

It was easy at first, of course I was scared but I had no right, so I did not allow myself to be hindered for my service, I did everything for it but in four months everything got worse, I had nightmares, I woke up sweaty every night, afraid that someone would kill me, I didn't get enough sleep, I couldn't eat, I was in a very difficult situation, but I couldn't leave this job i couldn't leave him without my protection.

Khun Kinn... He was the reason why i didn't freaked out yet, he was light in the darknes, when I'm with him i feel safe when he's the one who should feel that, he's my boss, I'm kinns head bodyguard, I'm always with him, to... protect him. It's been  three months since my feelings for him have grown, At first I just liked him, I thought I would move on, but.... I fell in love.

I hate myself for that, all my life i was told that i would grow up and have wife and childrens, but what about husband, I'm scared to disappoint my mother, i hate gays with all my guts, but him.... good thing he doesn't like me back and he will never be with someone like me. Little time and i will move on, but honestly, I'm saying this to myself for three month, why am i like this? Why "him?" "couldn't it been "her"?!

<Door sound>

He walked in, and my stupid thoughts were gone, i immediately stood up and put my head down.

"Kinn"-"Are you ready, we have to go,"

"Yes."

We had a mission fuck i totally forgot, i immediately followed him, actually i was confused that he was the one who called me but I didn't had time to think so i just let it go, we arrived to the room where all the bodyguards were waiting, khun kinn told us what we had to do and we left.

We got to the place, It was very dark, I could see almost nothing, but I still saw the ruined building, we had to go in there to get something and leave, easily. We entered the building in silence, I had to go to the other side, but I still followed Kinn in silence. ,
I knew it was a bad idea, but I couldn't let him go alone. Soon, I heard the sound of gunshot, and my mind automatically shifted to the kinn, i stood in front of him and pulled out my gun. It was one of our bodyguards.

"Kinn"-"i couldn't even notice how you followed me, You scared me, don't worry, I'm fine. -he smiled-

I just nodded, that smile was the only thing that calmed me down, when he smiles at me my head turns into a mess and i feel butterflys all over my stomach. Another gunshot, and my head started feeling dizzy, one last thing i saw was kinns face full of anger and worry. I was so scared but when i saw his face i calmed down, As long as i saw he's face even if it for the last time, I didn't care.

Kinns pov:

He stood in front of me, i was confused, i thought i told him to go to the other way but as he held me back and tried to protect me, i decided to forget that and focused on him, ahh it was so cutee, "he" was so cute.

i couldn't even notice how you followed me, You scared me, don't worry, I'm fine. I said as i smiled.

He just nodded, i couldn't do anything but smile, after five seconds my smile fade away as he fall into my arms, i looked at him, i could see the fear but the moment he saw me he smiled and closed his eyes.

"No big stay with me, get help! just a minute, okay, stay, " i said with my eyes filled with tears.

Thanks for reading ♡