Only With You ♡ KinnBig

Trust

!suicide! !SA!

Bigs pov:

I haven't seen kinn for really long time, he's been avoiding me since last week, i knew it i shouldn't have told him, after that he didn't call me once or come to the hospital, today I'm leaving hospital for good and he isn't even here,  but i can't be mad, he probably thinks I'm weird.

<Time skip>

Finally! I'm in the mansion, doctor said i can't work for another one week but i need to, otherwise i can't see him  and i need to make sure he's okay.

I was arguing with khun chan about work when he popped up out of nowhere  we stopped he was going to avoid us but suddenly he took a moment and came to us.

"Hello khun kinn"- chan greeted him.

"Hello"- i said trying not to look at him.

"What's happening here"- he nod and continued.

"Doctor said big can't work for another 1 or 2 week but he doesn't listen."- he said and kinn looked at me with anger and worries on his face.

"I just..."

"You will not work, that's it" - he cut me of and left the two of us.

I just returned to my room not knowing what to do, i need to talk to him but I'm scared I don't want him to hate me even more, I'm sitting alone in the room and can't get his face out of my head when i told him everything.

<<<Flashback>>>

"When i was fifteen.. amm... i had this teacher who liked to touch .. amm ... kids  and ..... I ....... I was one of them, one day he asked me to stay  because he needed help and .. amm" --my eyes got teary as his face changed --      --"i don't even know why I'm crying it was long time ago .... sorry .... And ... he did  ..... Something .... to Me ... and then i saw him doing the same thing to my best friend.. and amm he was found dead in... his room... I wanted to do it to but... I .. wasn't .. brave enough..." ---
i started crying he just stood up and left, i finally open up, trust someone and he just left without word or bit of expression, I'm stupid what did i expect. I was crying whole night.

<<<End of flashback>>>

I'm going to sleep there's nothing i can do except that, it's midnight when i woke up, i saw shadow looking at me he was sitting in front of my bad in the chair,-- " who are you?!" "HELLO" he came closer ignoring my words.

"Kinn?! what are you doing here?"

"Kinn"-"I tried"

"What? What are you saying?!"

"Kinn"-"i found him"

"Found?... Who?" He sat in front of me

"Kinn"-"I wanted to kill him but"

"Kinn! I can't understand what's wrong?! Wait were you crying?"

"Kinn"-"I'm sorry, i couldn't kill him, i was there but than i remembered how you told me everything i remembered how you were crying and i realized i shouldn't be the one to do it"

"Kinn"-"I'm sorry you had to go through this" --he rest his head on my chest and started crying, i couldn't believe it, i hadn't seen this version of him he never cries never and I can't understand why--

"Kinn calm down it's not your fault, why are you like this?"

"Kinn"-"He is in the basement"

"...." No no no not again. I understood what he meant but i didn't hear it from him so i didn't believe it.

"Kinn"-"Can i be here with you please"
--I was too shoked to say anything and i just nodded, honestly i needed him right now so much, soon after he fall asleep in my arms, i know i should be thinking about kinn in my arms looking so beautiful with his red eyes coused by crying but all i think about is him in the basement i know it's been years but nightmares always reminds me of that asshole, and when i know that he is in the same building as me it freaks me out "I'm sorry" i heard and looked down, he was talking in his sleep, his in stress because of me im such a mess, no right know i should think about him, he is with me so I'm not going to give my past chance to ruin him, no, i looked at him again now there is nothing at this moment that can scare me, i kissed his forehead he has high temperature i tried to stand up but he hugs me tight, i can't help but smile and start to stroke his hair as he hugs me tightly, now i can only think about his hands around my waist.

"Khun kinn, you are perfect"

            

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