!suicide! !SA!
Bigs pov:
I haven't seen kinn for really long time, he's been avoiding me since last week, i knew it i shouldn't have told him, after that he didn't call me once or come to the hospital, today I'm leaving hospital for good and he isn't even here, but i can't be mad, he probably thinks I'm weird.
<Time skip>
Finally! I'm in the mansion, doctor said i can't work for another one week but i need to, otherwise i can't see him and i need to make sure he's okay.
I was arguing with khun chan about work when he popped up out of nowhere we stopped he was going to avoid us but suddenly he took a moment and came to us.
"Hello khun kinn"- chan greeted him.
"Hello"- i said trying not to look at him.
"What's happening here"- he nod and continued.
"Doctor said big can't work for another 1 or 2 week but he doesn't listen."- he said and kinn looked at me with anger and worries on his face.
"I just..."
"You will not work, that's it" - he cut me of and left the two of us.
I just returned to my room not knowing what to do, i need to talk to him but I'm scared I don't want him to hate me even more, I'm sitting alone in the room and can't get his face out of my head when i told him everything.
<<<Flashback>>>
"When i was fifteen.. amm... i had this teacher who liked to touch .. amm ... kids and ..... I ....... I was one of them, one day he asked me to stay because he needed help and .. amm" --my eyes got teary as his face changed -- --"i don't even know why I'm crying it was long time ago .... sorry .... And ... he did ..... Something .... to Me ... and then i saw him doing the same thing to my best friend.. and amm he was found dead in... his room... I wanted to do it to but... I .. wasn't .. brave enough..." ---
i started crying he just stood up and left, i finally open up, trust someone and he just left without word or bit of expression, I'm stupid what did i expect. I was crying whole night.<<<End of flashback>>>
I'm going to sleep there's nothing i can do except that, it's midnight when i woke up, i saw shadow looking at me he was sitting in front of my bad in the chair,-- " who are you?!" "HELLO" he came closer ignoring my words.
"Kinn?! what are you doing here?"
"Kinn"-"I tried"
"What? What are you saying?!"
"Kinn"-"i found him"
"Found?... Who?" He sat in front of me
"Kinn"-"I wanted to kill him but"
"Kinn! I can't understand what's wrong?! Wait were you crying?"
"Kinn"-"I'm sorry, i couldn't kill him, i was there but than i remembered how you told me everything i remembered how you were crying and i realized i shouldn't be the one to do it"
"Kinn"-"I'm sorry you had to go through this" --he rest his head on my chest and started crying, i couldn't believe it, i hadn't seen this version of him he never cries never and I can't understand why--
"Kinn calm down it's not your fault, why are you like this?"
"Kinn"-"He is in the basement"
"...." No no no not again. I understood what he meant but i didn't hear it from him so i didn't believe it.
"Kinn"-"Can i be here with you please"
--I was too shoked to say anything and i just nodded, honestly i needed him right now so much, soon after he fall asleep in my arms, i know i should be thinking about kinn in my arms looking so beautiful with his red eyes coused by crying but all i think about is him in the basement i know it's been years but nightmares always reminds me of that asshole, and when i know that he is in the same building as me it freaks me out "I'm sorry" i heard and looked down, he was talking in his sleep, his in stress because of me im such a mess, no right know i should think about him, he is with me so I'm not going to give my past chance to ruin him, no, i looked at him again now there is nothing at this moment that can scare me, i kissed his forehead he has high temperature i tried to stand up but he hugs me tight, i can't help but smile and start to stroke his hair as he hugs me tightly, now i can only think about his hands around my waist."Khun kinn, you are perfect"
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Fanficthis story is about big and kinn after big died my heart broke so i thought i would give him his story, their love story ♡