Only With You ♡ KinnBig

Explanation

Kinns pov:

He has been sleeping for five hours, we're still holding hands, everytime i move he holds me tight, he's so cute when his sleeping, i was playing with his hair, when he started saying things, he was scared and sweaty.

"Big, hey wake up, it's just a dream, big"

"Big"-"someone help me! Don't.... don't do this, I'm begging you, please!!"

"Big wake up, big!"

He suddenly woke up, with tears and sweat, looking like a lost kitten.

"It was just a dream, don't be scared" -i hugged him-

"Big"-"It looked so real" -he hugged me tighter while crying-

"Calm down I'm here"-suddenly he stopped crying and moved away from me, i didn't say anything since he was afraid, but now i was curious about his dream-

"Big what were you dreaming about?" i asked.

"Big"-"it wasn't dream" -he said while putting blanket like he was hiding from the ghosts.-

"Wasn't dream?" I asked confused.

"Big"-"I don't want to talk about it"

"Okay, do you want something, water? food? just tell me" -i said trying to change the subject, i could feel he was uncomfortable-

"Big"-"I'm hungry" he said with a soft voice and removed the blanket.

"Okay wait for me" i said and called my bodyguard.

["Porsche where are you?"]

["Outside"]

["Can you get us some food?"]

["Of course khun kinn"]

{End of call}

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(I feel like i shouldn't have used Porsche as bodyguard   •́ ‿ ,•̀)
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"Food will be here in any minute"

"Okay" he mumbled.

After five minutes there was a knock on the door, i prepared the food and sat beside him.

"Here"

"Big"-"i can do it myself"

"I know i just wanted to feed you, come on open your mouth" -he finally gave in-

"Is it good?"

"Big"-"Yes..... Aren't you hungry?"

"It's alright i'll eat later"

"Big"-"Come on, eat with me or I'm not going to "- he crossed his hands and look at me like a child, waiting for me to eat-

"Okay" -i started to eat while he was looking at me with existed eyes-

"Big"-"now you, is it good?"-i smiled and nodded, his face suddenly turned sad and serious at the same time-

"Big"-"I think it's time to talk"i put everything aside and sit in front of him.

"What do you want to talk about"

"Big"-"don't interrupt me, i want to clear everything between us"--i just nodded and continue to listen-- "i said so many bad things and when you left i realized it wasn't meant for you but for me, i hate myself for liking you... A man, i don't think it's right, but everytime i see you my heart beats faster and faster, i get confused and i don't know what to do, i hate myself for that and now when i realize that i fell in love with a men, i hate myself more.--he just said he loves me-- and I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.

"You love me?"

"Big"-"that's the only thing you heard?" -he seemed angry but i couldn't help"

"No, I heard everything, and i get it i had this moment in my life too"--he looked at me confused-- yes... I went through this too, hating, wanting to kill yourself, afraid what might people say or your perents, but i started to learn to except myself for who i am,i started to talk about it more, i know you're afraid but hating yourself will not help you, And no matter what happens there will always be people in this world who love you despite everything.... Including me. --he hugged me tight--

"Big"-"Thank you."

"Sooo...you love me"-i said as he looked at me, smiled and hugged me again.- i felt butterflys all over my body.

"Come on you need to rest and sleep"-i helped him to lie down comfortable,i lie down next to him since he didn't let me go-

"Big" -i said after ten minutes to check if he was sleeping, i didn't get any response-

"I think i love you too"- i said and hugged him too-

Bigs pov:

"Big" -i think he checked if i was asleep, I didn't say anything-

"I think i love you too" -my heart started to beat so fast i thought it would explode, and he hugged me, ahh I didn't expect that-

"I heard that"

"Kinn"-"Big can i ask you something?" -He ignored my words-

"Yes"

"Kinn"-"your dream" suddenly i felt fear...

(Sorry i couldn't update it in time i just accidentally published it and then delete it ( ⚈̥̥̥̥̥́⌢⚈̥̥̥̥̥̀)

Thanks for reading ❤️