my savior || negan.

( 003 ) things to say

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" you're my girl "

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negan blew out a hot breath of air. kodine leaned forward and further into the kiss, making the man lurch forward as well. by the time negan had made his way over to them, the man was almost completely on top of kodi. negan grabbed him by the collar and pushed him away, looking to the other man who immediately whispered and scattered off. the other man faltered for only a second before getting on his knees, and kodine smiled as she did the same.

"stand up," negan demanded after a second. the man stood shakily, even with his much more muscular build than negan, he was way less powerful. negan radiated confidence and power, especially while he was angry. his eyes landed on kodi's and she took that as her cue to get off her knees. "whats going on here?" he asked, unable to control himself any longer. kodi bit back a smile.

"well, if you must know i was just having some fun with-whats your name?" she turned over to the man and he looked between the two, inside of what to do next.

"greg," he filled in for her.

"-greg." she finished. "what were you up to, boss?" she smiled and folded on leg over the other as she adjusted in her spot in the stairwell. negan's chest moved up and down quicker than before, watching as kodi licked her lips. finally when she had raised an expect brow negan snapped out of his trance.

"no matter what you are doing, or who you are doing, you stop when i enter a room. i want to see you on your knees when i'm present, unless i tell you to get up. then, and only then, should i ever have to see you standing. i am the boss here, got it fred?" negan said, his voice louder than before. kodi was sure he knew the mans name was greg, but it was an act of disrespect rather than forgetfulness.

"yes, sir," greg said, scampering out of the room once negan allowed him to. then, it was only the two left alone again.

negan took a step closer to the girl. their eyes connected and before kodi could register the look he had in them, his lips were on hers. she leaned up and into the kiss, grabbing his neck and using it to pull her closer-if that was even possible. his tongue slipped into her mouth and danced with hers until he finally pulled away. kodi stares into his eyes, daring him to leave her after that kiss. he knew he couldn't.

instead, he picked up her small body and went up the stairs, only finally breaking eye contact when she dropped onto the bed and their lips connected again.
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negan heaved a sigh as him and kodi plopped back down onto the bed in a sweaty mess. it had been another month of them being together in secrecy, but kodi had noticed that barely anything had changed. since she ignored him, he did start staying after and holding her for a few more minutes, but it was never long enough.

after a few minutes negan was standing out of bed and grabbing his jeans off the floor. "negan," kodi started, her voice much different than it had been just minutes ago. he looked over his shoulder at her, waiting for her to continue as he slipped on his jeans. "i-" she stopped. it was just one sentence, why was it so hard to say?

"what is it, ko?" he asked gently as he zipped up his pants. she let her eyes fall to his body for another second before looking back up to his eyes. she couldn't handle the secrecy anymore. she wanted to be with him all the time, not just when nobody was looking. sure, sometimes it made her feel like a teenager again, sneaking around people's back and having fun, but not all of it could be perfect.

she wanted more. "i don't want this to be a secret anymore. i don't want us to be a secret," she admitted, letting out a much needed breath after the sentence was out. she felt like a weight was lifted off her chest, but the weight wouldn't be completely gone until she got negan's answer. she took another deep breath.

negan took his time putting on his shoes before finally looking back to kodine. "you know that can't happen, ko," he said, the words themself an apology. maybe he wanted it to deep inside, but most of him couldn't let that happen. he was strong, powerful, he was the boss. bosses don't let girls trail behind them. bosses are bosses because they can't be hurt. they can't be hurt because they love nothing, so enemies can't retaliate. if kodine were to get mixed into the mess, it would just tangle the string even more. it'd be easier to just forget about that idea altogether.

"why not? we've been together for two months now, negan. i'm done hiding, please," she said, the word simply unnatural leaving her mouth. negan had never heard it, and kodi was sure she hadn't said the word please in at least a year or two. something had changed in her since she met negan, and she couldn't deny that. but maybe something changed in negan too...

"it can't happen," negan repeated.

"it can happen, you just won't let it. why not? i've been good to you..." kodi said, running a warm hand up negan's bare back. she sat up and leaned closer to him, planting a kiss in the crook of his neck. this is exactly what he didn't want. these little kisses meant that they weren't casual anymore. he already sacrificed that, but for this to be our in the open? he might as well be tied down to a tree.

he got off the bed and let kodi's hand fall to the mattress with a thump. her face saddened and negan turned around so he didn't have to see it anymore. he plucked his shirt off the ground and pulled it over his head. "you can forget about it or dream about it, but either way it's not happening." he said sternly as he slipped into his leather jacket.

kodi leaned back into the bed with a sigh. reminder: negan always won.