Original Draft
i was wrong to say i loved you
i was wrong to think i was right
i've been searching for myself
for far too many nights
i was told
how could i love someone
if i didn't love myself
and i let that guide my hand
as i pushed you away
little did i know i was the only one
in my way
I Remember you, falling ill to my eyes
when all i saw was myself
i was selfish to not see you needed me
i kept you locked away from myself
my thoughts haunted me
and it spread to you
and i know now, that none of it was true
but it was too late, fate dealt it's hand
and i took my last breath face down in the sand
am i insane?
[Chorus]
this is how it feels
to watch the world cave in
to see you but not be able to touch you
did i make a mistake
i long for the days you would caress my skin
i long for your embrace
whether it left blush or a scar
and to know that your out there
and you might feel the same way
i just can't live with it
knowing what keeps us apart is your own mind
this is how it feels
to not be able to touch you but i know one day
we will be together again
To say it was my fault
to convince yourself you were the only victim
that was the final blow
to an already dead relationship
to look me in the eyes and tell me
it was all my fault
i resent you for the way
you moved on without me
i held you close to my heart
i led you through my darkest
and you were my guide to the world
i never let myself see
and you took it away
now there's nothing left to say
i can't love you anymore
and i am finally free
05/28/22
