Two Worlds Apart [MiChaeng Fanfic]

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We are now back home in Korea. The girls and I had a blast. We had a bonfire in our last night by the beach and had a heart-to-heart talk. They all sure did missed Chaeyoung, she's like the baby of our group, along with Dahyun and Tzuyu. It was an emotional night as we all teared up. It's truly a night to remember.

We are chilling in the living room while watching a reality show. Chaeyoung stood up and scavenged food from my freezer and managed to get a strawberry ice cream cone.

She crawled on the couch and cuddled me while watching the show. She's eating her ice cream while I'm munching on some chips. I really love how she makes me feel when she's near me. Her warmth, her scent, it's everything.

She asked me a question after licking her ice cream, "Will you ever go back to acting?"

I ponder on her question and said, "Honestly, I was about to start again on the day you came back. I just hold everything back because I want to spend more time with you... I'm afraid that when I start acting I won't have time for you. Then your 49 days here would be meaningless."

She caresses my bare thigh and said, "That's good to hear. I'm glad you want to go back. You're so good at it, it's like you're born for it. It's your dream after all."

"Yeah, it was. I also didn't expect that my fame would shoot up this much."

"Do you remember during The Heirs era... I was the singer for your OST?"

"Yes, that's when we first met." I smiled at the memory.

"And do you remember that very late at night when it was crazily snowing and you couldn't go home then we spent the night at the Yoo Beep Beep Cottage?"

"Of course. That was our first night... the firsts are always memorable."

"Actually, I waited for you to finish," she looked at me. "You caught my attention ever since I first saw you. Then I kept tailing you around when I'm done recording. Your beauty is just so ethereal that I'm so attracted."

My heart leaped for a moment. We never had this conversation before. So I never knew she also felt the same way towards me. I then told her about what I felt about her too, and that it was also love at first sight. We are really meant for each other. We are born for each other.

"Actually, I watched you, you know..." she suddenly said.

"Hm? What do you mean?" I asked. I'm so confused by her vague statement.

"During that whole year, my soul was still wandering the earth... I watched you, all the time. And it..." She started to cry. "It hurts me to see you like that. It made me hate myself more. I felt so terrible as well."

I hugged her as tears start forming in my eyes as well. I am so speechless that I don't know what to say.

"Every time you attempted to take your life, I whispered to our friends so they can come save you. They can't see me though, but it just gave them a rush of sudden thought to come see you. It breaks me... every time... to see you that way."

We are both crying now and I hold her hand as she continues to go on.

"I'd like to think the heavens pitied me so much. 'Cuz, haha, I looked like a poor, weeping soul," she let out a soft chuckle and squeeze my hand.

"Every time you spend time with the girls, I was always there watching you guys. And at those moments, I felt like I was there too. And I'm just glad and really thankful to them for their efforts towards you. I'm glad they did what I asked them to promise me before I left... which was to take care of you."

More and more tears rolled down my eyes. My thoughtful Chaeyoung.

"I'm just really happy they granted me days to spend time with you guys again on earth. Even though it's just 49 days, it means a lot to me. I just... miss you guys so much."

I stroked her hair and kissed her forehead. "I love you so much, Chaeng," I said.

"I love you too, my love," she said and closed her eyes as she leaned on my chest. "After my days are over... please take care of yourself, love. Please don't... attempt to take your life again. I wouldn't like that," she looked at me with pleading eyes. I nodded at her to assure her. I hugged her tight.

"I'm so sorry, Chaeng... It's just, life was just so meaningless without you. My world revolves around you, you are my everything. You are literally my world," I cried.

She cupped my jaw and said, "I know... me too. That's why it also hurts me so much to see you in that state. Every time you're weeping on your bed, I would lay next to you and hug you. Every time you're crouching down on the floor crying, I would hug you from behind, and whispering to tell you to stop... but it didn't seem to work. And every time you visit me at my tombstone, I always follow you from behind. Because I didn't want you to be alone, even if you didn't know that I was there. You just mean so much to me."

I closed my eyes while remembering all those times. I was almost close to dying since I wasn't eating that much, I directed all my strength to crying, and I also wasn't sleeping well. In fact, I passed out quite a lot. Good thing the girls are always there to take care of me. My doctor also visited me a lot of times in my penthouse, constantly checking my condition. But no matter what, I still couldn't seem to erase the pain from my heart. It was really depressing.

"Love, when I'm gone, please continue doing the things you love. Spend more time with the girls. Go to parties. Visit your mom often. Find a new love. And move on... from me," a tear rolled down her cheek. "Promise me to do all of these... for me. So I may peacefully go without being worried at you."

I shook my head and said, "I can't find a new love, Chae." She looked at me, alarmed. "I can do all the things you ask me to, well I might. But I certainly can't find a new love. Because you're my one and only love. No one can ever replace you. I would never be happy in the arms of another person unless it was you."

I looked at her with love and adoration. "You are my only one. And will forever be," I said. "Though I'll try to slowly move on from you. But I just can't and won't romantically love another."

She smiled. "I really made a huge impact on you, haven't I?" She teased.

I nudged her arm and said, "It's your fault for being too cute and adorable. And loving. It keeps me insane. And possessive. And crazy. You make me fall in love with you so madly." I kissed her and I can still taste the faint flavor of strawberry on her lips. 

"I love you, so madly, so deeply, so crazily. My only love."

"I love you too, love, so madly, so deeply, so crazily. My forever love," she said and we kissed and made love the all night on that couch.