Pyaar Once Again

VIII

You didn't just break all your promises

You broke me .

It has been one year , since that incident had happened . I was getting continuous nightmares about it , but Nischay and Abhiudaya had helped me a lot to overcome it. But from the past 3 months he has been ignoring me , I thought that it was okay but now it was not . Not that I'm some type of attention seeker , attention was never something I would like, thanks to my anxiety .
But It's crazy how quickly you can go from being excited to talk to a person to feeling like you're forcing the conversation. The quality time had turned into "I was working" and the consistent communication has become "Mujhe nahi pata". When does "I hate to see you leave." turned into it hurts too much to stay?
And tonight I have had finally found the courage to talk to him .

"Nischay.." I called out , fiddling with my fingers . He hummed in reply. "Tum-" I halted in my tracks as our eyes locked . Amara what the hell? It's been a year since you are dating him , and you still couldn't look into his eyes while talking ?
I took a deep breath , and gathered my wits . "Nischay , mujhe kuch dino se tumse kuch kehna tha."
" Kya?"
" Yehi k- ke tum bohot ache ho."

Nahi keh payi main . I heaved a sigh . Kyun hun main aisi? Nahi Amara , just fucking say it!
"I've had enough! I want break up!"
I blurted out . He didn't even wanted to respond to what i just said . He just kept his eyes on his laptop screen . Now , this is starting to get on my nerves.
"Nischay , I - I hate you!" My eyes brimming with tears .
" Ab kya kar diya maine?"
Nischay asked , his expression showing his interest. Note the sarcasm.

"Kya Kiya hai?? Ye poocho kya nahi kiya! Tum cheat kar rhe ho!"
"Cheat!? Proof hai koi?" Nischay questioned with a serious face.
"Ji haan"
"Kya?"
"US din din - us din- friday ko jab tum us ladki ke sath the ..." I started to think about the day. " Kya naam tha uska..Priya...angel Priya?"
"Priyanshi" Nischay corrected .
"Haan haan, Priyanshi"

"Tumhe uska name bhi yaad nahi hai or tum , tum itne yakeen se keh rahi ho ki main cheat kr rha hun?" Nischay put a question, crossing his arms against his chest .
"Tumhe kaise dekhti hai or us time kaise !Lagti Kya hai voh tumhari?"
"I don't see how that is any of your concern" he sliced coldly.
" Hey, I'm your girlfriend ,hakk banta hai mera" I retorted .
"Firstly , voh meri manager hai aur secondly , us samay voh mujhe tumse door nahi leke jaa rahi thi...voh bas tum hume presha-"
I interjected .
" Mujhe na kuch sunna hi nahi hai ab! Main jaa rahi hun! " I shouted , leaving Nischay behind.

*

I'm losing you..
I can feel you slowly drifting away from me if you have never truly held on and it's nauseating watching you become someone else that i no longer recognise.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I did not notice Abhishek snapping his fingers in front of my face .

"Oh , I'm sorry . " I apologized .
"Nahi koi baat nahi. Andar ao."

" Mujhe Nischay se baat krni thi"
"Amara, Nischay bhai abhi thodi der pehele hi airport ke liye nikal gye hain..tumhe btaya nahi bhai ne voh Mumbai jaa rahe hai do din Ke liye?"

"Nahi , btaya tha but Maine socha abhi nahi jaega voh"
"Chai Vai pio"
"Nahi nahi"
"Aao na please chai bnani aati hai mujhe" he insisted.
" Theek hai."

"Ye Kya hai?" I asked , suppresing my laugh .

"Ah sorry actually my house is kinda mess."
"Kinda "I stressed at his words sarcastically.