Love & Demons

12. Ajax

Ajax

I was trained to win, be number 1 and excel and come out on top in every single thing I do! no bullshitting. 

Ajax equals winner , it says so in the dictionary we keep in Tartarus! right next to winner is my name etched there in black and white as the description. I swear ,you're more than welcome to come and look it up If you want.

I have sent people to the pits of Tartarus for not believing me that can now attest to this. They sure as hell believe me now.

But that's not the point the point here is that I hate losing , loathe it ,detest it ,abhor it.

You know what I hate more than losing though? Losers.

Having dealt and seen plenty of them in my life time. The lowest of the low scum. The most sorry pathetic excuse of filth that all worlds and universes have to offer, I know how to judge one when I see one.

Like this guy over here I look at him with a cross between fury and disdain while he still struggles to get air running normally in his lungs. My lip curls into a sneer and I have to hold myself back from saying the word die again or strangling his flabby neck with my bare hands and finishing him off, Fucking prink he doesn't deserve to live.

I should have fucking killed him. There is nothing in this world I hate more than scum, specifically scum that think they are better than other scum, worse Scum that think they are better than normal honest to god people.

I will never understand mortals and their hate for one another based on their differences. It's such a petty thing to focus on especially when that doesn't even make a difference when they're dead.

The mortal life is fleeting ,short and worthless created for the mere amusement of their gods and their master to test if one is worthy enough to live amongst the gods or low enough to die amongst the demons. 

You see after death, that's were the differences matter. 

Angel or demon , god or devil , or no side at all . Just depends on how you live your life.

Mortals are born pure , honest with freedom of choice. That's one thing I envy about them, they get to have a choice.

It always perplexes me why most choose to live life the hard way. Spoiling other people's chances of  a good life in the process because of their selfishness and greed, dragging everybody else into shit for their poor choices, and succumbing to the seven sins that they could have avoided if they all just learnt to chill the fuck out. It really isn't that deep.

It's so easy to do good , because good is easily reciprocated and rewarded.

Bad, well that shit sticks forever, you just need one rotten egg in a dozen to fucking spoil it for everybody.  

If everybody just bloody got along , minded their own fucking business . lived a short worthless life on earth and than die so they can live a  happily ever after in the afterlife-  heaven or float aimlessly in air for all eternity.

Fuck if I care, at least that shit wouldn't affect me.

But No, humans don't want to understand how lucky they are that they are given an opportunity to live , make choices ,earn they position in our world. Doesn't even matter which god they worship, or what the fuck they do as long as they don't hurt anybody .  

I think if they spent less time worrying about shit that doesn't matter and actually enjoy being alive, they wouldn't be a need for the devil, fuck they wouldn't even be a need for me. 

Trevor and I  didn't get a choice. We were thrown into this shit life because of who our daddy is. I think If I had a choice I would have liked the idea of not existing at all but people just had to be assholes, They just had to give the devil more power to reproduce,  so here we are.