but darling, it's just a dream

r e a d y t o r u n // l.p

❝you can't sleep ?❞
❝me either,❞
❝let's sleep together,❞
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a/n ; okay, to clear things up with this dream, I am a two-time cancer survivor and I was in and out of hospital for, F O U R (get it) years and 'Ready To Run' speaks to me on a personal level.

ps. please, don't give any sympathy, empathy, pity or "I'm so sorry," type crap, because I hate it.
pss. I love it when Liam hugs fans, his face goes all squishy! ITS SO FOOKING CUTE!

thank you : ) x

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I woke up with a group of all my closet friends, but I was the first one awake, eventually everyone woke up and this baby that I knew crawled over to me I played with the baby and started talking to my friends.

More and more friends arrived and I got up and out of my bed and put the baby on my shoulders and I said, "Guys, I'm officially 20! Thank you all for coming, some people couldn't come today," Well as soon as I said that Liam walked through and I just started crying, because we were best friends since high school and he was on his Where We Are Tour, with the boys.

Then everyone started singing Happy Birthday to me after that everyone decided to leave.

I ran up to Liam and started crying and said, "You said you couldn't make it! You idiot! You know, I don't like surprises, you know that!" with a pouty face.

"HAHAHAH! Surprise!" Then engulfed me in one of his famous Liam hugs and felt his chest going up and down as he laughed.

We end up talking for bit then my mum came in and said, "Hello Liam, so happy that you could make Tay's day by coming. We have to go now Tay, Liam you are more than welcome to come with us,"

I was really confused because I thought I was in my house. I shrugged it off.

Liam and I both left the room that we were in and walked over to the elevator.

We were in the elevator, I didn't know where my mum was, "You know Tay, I miss you so much. I want to be with you every step of this horrible journey, but it's hard, because I can't let the boys and the fans down. I feel absolutely horrible, I'm torn in two. But I will fly out when I get the chance, I promise," Liam said sadly.

I was really confused in what Liam said. We reached the bottom of the elevator and my mum still wasn't there and no where to be seen.

We walked through to the front entrance until we reached the exit. We kept walking and talking, but I started getting out breath and Liam had noticed and offered me a piggy back ride, "I'm accepting, because I feel about to pass out, okaaaaaay," "Okaaaaaaay!" I said in a playful tone, while pointing my finger at him.

We reached the car park which was about five minutes away and Liam put me down and said, "Tay I've got something for you, it's for your twentieth birthday present. It's a song and I talked to our horrible management," he rolled his eyes when he said the word, 'management', "and they have allowed to me to record it! And it's going to be put on to the fourth album and it's going to be our first music video," said with his beautiful cheerful smile.

"Liaaaaam, you know I hate the this kind of attention and what about all the hate I will receive?" It wasn't that I didn't like the One Direction fandom, it was that any living vagina that was near any of the boys was rumoured to be dating them. But I was just best friends with Liam, that was it. He was dating Sophia who I absolutely love and adore. They are so perfect for each other. She's is sweet and has a huge heart just like Liam.

Liam and I went to high school together and I was his only friend after I came to England for foreign exchange student and he showed me around the school and Wolverhampton.

a/n ; I was meant to go to England for foreign exchange but every time I organised it, I got sick (twice) and then I was too old to do it. *cries*

"Don't worry about that Tay, I'll stand up for you, you know that! and so will the boys. You know Louis will be sassy and shame them out on the spot. But the only way we can go forward this, is if you allow us too," Liam said, nervously.

"Hmm...okay, but I get to hear it before it get released and I get to be on the set! Deal?" I said back to Liam excitedly, because I never been to a recording studio and on one of the boys music video sets and I have always really wanted to go to one and see how everything works.

"Deal!" Liam said, with a huge cheek to cheek smile forming on his face.

Then Liam pulled out a book and turned to a page, with the lyrics written on it. But at the top was, the date "1/June/2014"

There's a lightning in your eyes, I can't deny
Then there's me inside a sinking boat running out of time
Without you I'll never make it out alive
But I know, yes I know, we'll be alright

There's a devil in your smile, it's chasing me
And every time I turn around it's only gaining speed
There's a moment when you finally realize
There's no way you can change the rolling tide
But I know, yes I know, that I'll be fine

This time I'm ready to run
Escape from the city and follow the sun
'Cause I wanna be yours, don't you wanna be mine?
I don't wanna get lost in the dark of the night
This time I'm ready to run
Wherever you are is the place I belong
'Cause I wanna be free, and I wanna be young
I will never look back now I'm ready to run
I'm ready to run

"Liam the song title is blank?" I questioned Liam.

"Ah, hah. That's a surprise, Tay," Liam said, trying not to smile, but failed.

Then my mum came out of no where and said, "You have to go back to hospital tomorrow Tay, the doctor said that you need a blood and playlet transfusion," I looked at Liam and said, "Hospital? She's crazy right Liam, I'm not sick,"

And that's when Liam said, with tears forming at the corners of his eyes, "Tay, you are very sick, the boys were all devastated and so was I, that's why I flew out to see you. I was lucky enough to get some time off from the tour," it looked Liam was about to break down crying any second.

I hated seeing Liam cry.

Liam would always tell me what the bullies use to do him. I always asked him, "Why he wouldn't come and get me? Because I'm Australian, even though I'm not a violent person, I'll scare them," But boys and their egos back in high school and Liam never wanted me to get hurt.

My eyes started getting watery and I just cried and Liam just hugged me and rested his chin on my head and started crying.
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this one is very special to me and it will forever remain in my heart until I the day I die.

before I went in hospital the second time, the boys were in Sydney and my doctor said that I had a week to "live it up" and my mum wouldn't take me to Sydney. but Liam did all those twitcams and I watched every.single.one. from start to finish. it was really early in the morning and I was watching Liam and it was the twitcam where we got a million viewers and I was spamming Liam to watch the janoskians ( regretting it now, personal  reasons ) and he saw my tweet and end up clicking on the video where, 'What Makes You Beautiful' playing in the background, and he watched a bit of it, and oh, the carrot days, my Twitter user was, gosh, this embarrassing - @//TayHarryStyles ( 😂 ) and he said, "Ah, thank you Tay," and I screamed down the whole Ronald McDonald House, my mum was asleep and I swear she shit her pants, because she thought I was doing or something, but she fangirled with me at two am.

also, I got Liam do access! I'm so happy! Even though I'm a Harry girl and he makes me so happy, Liam is my fucking ball of sunshine and my parents favourite. they don't like Harry and it makes me sad.

anyways, that's a long authors note, I apologise.

ilysm tay : ) x