but darling, it's just a dream

c o n c e r t - t w o // o.d

❝ I hope that you know, that you are what my dreams are made of,❞

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So, I was in the supermarket with my mum and we were gong through the register and Calum served us.

I started crying because, I was in so much shock.

Then he came out of the register and hugged me and I hugged him back, crying and wetting his shirt.
He asked me, "If I was going to the concert?" I shook my head and started crying because I wanted tickets so bad.

He saw the sad look on my face, he hugged me again and said, "Here, look, I will pay for you and a friend to go to England to see me and the boys perform at Wembley stadium." I started crying so hard I fell into his arms, and surprised him and Calum stumbled back a little. But once he steadied himself, he rubbed my back.

Once I got home, I rang Ella straight away, not even bothering to help mum with the groceries, and I told what had happened and that I had chose her to come with me!
She screamed, I screamed, then we both screaming.

Two weeks flew by so fast, when we were on the plane to England, I couldn't stop shaking and crying and smiling and Ella just kept telling me that, "Your seeing you're boys, Tay! I'm so happy for you!"

So my best friend Ella and I flew to London and we were pretty far back, but I didn't care!

One - I was seeing all nine sunshines live!
Two - I was in England and I've always wanted to go!
Three - I was with my best friend who hade helped me through my tough journey and she deserved to come with me!

A guard approached myself and Ella and asked me if I was Taylor Scott? I nodded, he said, "Your seats have been moved, your in front row now." Ella and I eyes went wide and grabbed out handbags and followed the guard, we were so close.

We were right in front of the platform! I was shaking and crying so much, that Ella said, "Taylor! Stop crying you'll ruin your make up for Harry," and we both laughed. She always knew how to make bad situation good. She hated seeing anyone upset, same with me, I hated seeing anyone upset and I would do anything to see her smiling and laughing again.

Then all the lights in the stadium went dark and we knew it was about to start, because the safety video was about to start, but it didn't.

Luke spoke over the microphone and said, "Is there a Taylor-Renae Scott in the stadium and if so, please make your way to the front of the stage." He said so casually, I was like, "What ?!?"

I swear my heart stopped besting and nothing registered in my head. I just sat their frozen in my seat. I didn't even breathe or blink.

Ella, had to physically lift me out of my seat and shake me like a doll and was shouting at me, "Taylor! Taylor! They want you go on stage! Taylor get on the fucking stage!" She pushed me towards their stairs. She was smiling from ear to ear.

I still hadn't registered what was going on.

When I hit the first step, I was shaking and I went to grab Ella's hand but the guard wouldn't let me.

Once, I climbed the steps, at a very slow rate, thinking this was all a dream and that I was going to wake up any moment.

I finally reached the stage and I looked back to see and try and find Ella, but I couldn't find her anywhere. I was starting to freak out.

Inhale Taylor. Exhale Taylor. I kept tell myself. I didn't look at the crowd, because I could just feel all their eyes on me, and they felt like daggers of jealousy.

I just focused on looking forward, but I couldn't even look at the boys, because knowing how clumsy I am I would face plant the stage or do something embarrassing.

Eventually, I got to Luke and he said, "Calum told me you couldn't afford tickets because of a certain reason. Is that right, Tay!" I nodded and I was crying. He called me, "Tay," I couldn't speak, I was in so much shock.

He gave me a hug, and gee, didn't he smell good. I cried even harder because he was a giant and I'm a shorty.

He pulled me back by my shoulders and looked at me in the eyes, and I couldn't look at his beautiful baby blue eyes.

( I can't look into people's eyes when the speak and I hate it when people do it back. I don't know, I'm weird. hah. )

He said, "We heard your a big One Direction fan is that right?" I nodded again and I was crying even harder, because Luke Roberts Hemmings just fucking hugged me. I didn't care that my make up has probably is smeared all over my face.

Well, with that, four of the boys came out of nowhere; Liam, Louis, Niall and Zayn. I didn't know where Harry was, I was a little bit sad, but I was still in, "oh. my. fucking. god. mode," because the other four boys.

The gave me a huge group hug. I was being sandwich between four boys. But I was so much shock, that when they asked me if I was alright, I shook my head.

Then Niall said in his beautiful Irish accent, "Now we're gonna tie a bandana around your eyes, is that okay?" I nodded. The bandana looked I had seen it before. But I just brushed it off.

Then sassy Louis said, "I think she's lost her voice," and chuckled, which earned a slap across the arm from Liam.

Liam tied the bandana around my head.

"Oi! Oi! Can you see what I'm doing?" Louis asked. I shook my head.

Then they directed me where to go, two of the boys held one of my hands each.

Well, all of a sudden they stopped, so I stopped. Someone was in front of me, and he had a really nice cologne. It smelt like Harry would wear.

The person stood forward and put his hands around my head and he untied the bandana, from around my head. He stood back once he was finished.

Once my eyes adjusted to the light, there was Harry.

I could have passed out, but instead, I just broke down crying, he asked, "Can I give you a hug?" I nodded in response, because I could not talk.

He was so tall, that I didn't even reach his neck, so he had to bend down a little. He rubbing my back up and down, and his hands were huge!

Because ever since the day I was sick I wanted to thank Harry, for making my days brighter.

He whispered to me, "I'm so proud of you and what you've been though, Tay."

I don't know how I got a voice, but I asked Harry how he knew, and he said in that beautiful slow English accent, "A very good friend of yours," I knew straight away - Ella. She knew this was my main goal and this is all is I wanted.

"Got in contact with us and told us what you have been through and how much we helped you. Well, your story touched us and we decided to organise this. We got Calum to go your towns supermarket and tell you."

Then I heard Michael shout, "I wanted to fucking do it! But they wouldn't fucking let me!" His microphone obviously wasn't on.

"Because you swear to fucking much," Luke called out after, either was Luke's.

"Hey! No fucking swearing! There are little English ears out there!" and pointed to the crowd.

Then we all just started laughing.
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yeah, this one was also obviously related to my journey.

once again please, no sympathy, empathy, pity or, "I'm so sorry," because I don't deserve them.

thanks, once again.

ilysm tay : )