Nicks Journal

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Warnings:
Angst

This is written in the form of poetry!
Totally not based on true events... haha.
Sorry for being so inactive, sorry if this isn't the update you all were hoping for. I hope you like it either way.
Love you all!
<3
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I never really knew,
I never knew what love felt like.
Well, until I met you
I never knew,
I never knew all the abilities that came along with it.

The ability to block out the bad things.
The power your mind has when your entranced by another human being.
To forget within moments.
Forget every little thing that hurt so badly.

Just a text back
It made me forget the week you spent not texting me at all.

The countless nights of overthinking.
Does he hate me?
I'd ask that question a lot.
I mean a lot.

Once the ding sounded though,
I'd forget.
Or at least try to forget.
Forgive I suppose.

Deep down I didn't forget,
I slowly grew more and more tired.
Tired of waiting.
Tired of the distance.

The distance.

The distance that you yourself created.
I tried to understand.
I wanted to understand.

But I couldn't.
I couldn't bring myself to understand,
To understand why you'd put so much distance in between us.

So suddenly, for weeks at a time.
This has to be unhealthy, right?
Leaving me without warning?

I just want you to love me.
Do you love me?

I don't know.

But I love you.

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