Steddie oneshots <3

feelings (angst/fluff)

(a/n- i am writing this at like 4am bc i cant sleep LMAO sorry if there's any typos)

Hawkins, 1986.

They did it. They actually did it. They defeated Vecna. And now, Everything was over; all the kids had moved on with their lives. Well, all besides Eddie Munson. The thing is, the others had dealt with similar situations multiple times but for Eddie this was very new, and holy shit was it having a toll on his mind.
He had never imagined there being a whole other world with terrifying shit trying to kill you every second. He doesn't know how he survived.

But part of him wishes he hadn't, part of him wishes he didn't have to live with the memories. The trauma. Worst of all, his newfound feelings for one person in the group. He hates it. He hates the thought of him. His stupidly perfect hair, his beautiful face, his body that just seems to have no flaws, his caring and brave personality. Steve fucking Harrington won't get out of his mind, no matter how hard he tries to push it away. He had became so attached when they were fighting for their lives together.
They weren't just surviving, they were bonding; growing to know each other. Eddie growing to love Steve, but he knew he could never. Never. Let that be found out. Steve would just be so disgusted by him and tell the whole town just how much of a creep he is, falling for a guy he didn't even know that well before.

So, Eddie did what he does best in this situation. He ran. Pushed everyone away. Now he sits, alone in his trailer hoping to god Dustin or Max or fucking Steve or anyone comes knocking to check on him. It's happened so many times he'd figure they would give up by now.

As he's hoping, Eddie yelps and jumps as he's startled but then he breathes out heavily and rolls his eyes. There's a banging on his door followed by painfully familiar voice.
"Eddie, man, please open up. It's Steve. Look I know you're scared but we all care about you. I care about you. C'mon please just talk-"

While Steve had been talking, Eddie just walked to his room and slammed the door shut. "Fucking hell, go away." He mumbles to himself before turning on loud metal music as an attempt to drown out Steve's yelling. Why can't he just leave him alone? Now the words "I care about you" will be stuck in the back of Eddie's mind for god knows how long.

Steve hears the music from outside and curses to himself, annoyed and confused. But still concerned. He truly does care about Eddie and just wants to help. Eddie knows he wants to help but if he lets him he knows the feelings will only grow stronger.
Steve decides to try and walk around to Eddie's bedroom window, hoping he can somehow try to talk through there. He doesn't really have a plan he just wants to check on Eddie. The curtains are slightly open and he can see into Eddie's room. He's sitting on his bed, staring at the wall, eyes looking dark; empty. Steve's stomach sinks and he feels even deeper concern at this. He's never seen Eddie in such a horrible state.

He knocks on the window, causing Eddie to jump. "What the fuck was that?", He looks over and that's when they make eye contact for the first time in weeks. Eddie's heart starts racing even more than before and he feels overwhelmingly angry but excited at the same time to see Steve again. "What the fuck what the fuck he didn't go away. Does he really care that much? Why? God please go away." Eddie thinks to himself as the silent eye contact continues. And by the sympathetic look on Steve's face Eddie knows Steve can tell what he's thinking.
After a few more minutes Eddie realizes Steve isn't going to go away. He decides to give a small signal to Steve, who seems to understand, before going to open the door.

"Uh, hey man." Steve says in a soft tone, not wanting to come off as rude or annoying.
Eddie's heart flutters at the softness of his voice, but yet replies with a blunt "Hey."
He moves to let Steve in and closes the door behind him. Steve slowly walks over and sits on Eddie's couch, Eddie following after him, sitting on the opposite side (as far away as possible.)
"So uuh, do you need to talk? I'm not trying to pressure you, I'm just really concerned. We haven't talked in weeks and I know what happened was shocking and traumatic and I'm so sorry you had to be put thro-" Steve begins to ramble but Eddie is quickly tired of it and cuts him off. "It's ok, I'm fine. I just- I need to cope with this on my own. I don't like needing help." He says without making eye contact. He can't let Steve know the full reason he doesn't want his help with healing but he can't lie to him while looking directly into his eyes, that would be way too disrespectful and straight up wrong. Steve sighs and moves an inch or so closer to Eddie. "Okay, that's fine I get it. I won't bother you about it anymore until you get comfortable enough to talk about it. But can you please at least try to talk to me and hang out again. I wanna be friends."

For some reason, that word stings. Eddie just wants to yell at him, tell him he wants to be more than friends and finally be with him. He knows better though, for christs sake they're in Hawkins, Indiana. A small town that frowns upon homosexuals.

"Ok. Ok yea we can be friends. Is that all you're here for?" Eddie says, kind of rushed. Steve can sense pain in his voice. He very slowly reaches out to lightly touch Eddie's arm, meaning it in a friendly way but it still makes Eddie's mind go nuts. Steve sighs "Ed, man, you can be honest with me. What's up with you? I know I said I'd stop bothering you about it just a minute ago but I'm like truly fucking concerned." He lets out a dry laugh. "I promise I'm here for you fully, whatever it is you can talk. I won't talk about this with anyone, I won't even tell them I came here."

Eddie sits and thinks for a minute. He realizes Steve really won't freak out. Or at least most likely won't freak out, so he takes a deep breath and closes his eyes before telling him.
He looks at Steve, now making eye contact again. "Okay, you told me to be honest and I am. Don't freak out but.." Eddie pauses to breathe again, and Steve nods reassuringly. "I have feelings for you dude, I'm sorry-" Eddie starts to break the eye contact as he speaks, "I-I've tried to push them away. The best I can. That's mainly why I haven't been talking to anyone, but especially you, I didn't want to be reminded of all that time we spent together and how fucking perfect you are and-" Steve reaches out to touch his face, causing him to stop and look back at the other's face. To his surprise, Steve is giving him a sweet smile.

"Eddie, it's okay. I like you too."
And with that, Eddie is so blown away and relieved that he can't hold himself back. He moves closer to Steve and hugs him hard, trying his best to not sob. Steve returns the hug and rubs his back. "I wish you would've told me sooner, I know it's scary as shit but you gotta understand how nice I am at this point. Even if I was straight and didn't have to same feelings I still would have remained friends with you." Steve chuckles, and so does Eddie. He realizes the worry was all in his head. After about another minute of just hugging they pull away and just kind of look at each other. Eddie can't stop smiling and Steve thinks he could look at Eddie's beautiful smile forever. He had missed him, a lot.

Steve moves a little closer to Eddie, which Eddie responds by doing the same and bringing his hand up to hold his face. "You are a beautiful man, Steve Harrington." Eddie laughs before leaning in closer.
Steve blushes a little and smiles "Thank you, Munson." Before leaning in at the same time. Before they knew it their lips connected, and it was better than anything either of them had ever felt. Eddie's hand moves from Steve's face to his shoulder and Steve reaches out to softly touch Eddie's knee. They continue kissing, eyes closed and completely lost in the sweet feeling. They eventually pull away after a few minutes.
"Be mine?" Eddie asks, his forehead resting against Steve's

"Of course."

They smile at each other before continuing the kiss.

okay, that was the end! i hope it wasn't too shitty LOL if there's any suggestions on how i should change my writing to make it better pls tell me. but i hope you enjoyed!!! im gonna try to get some sleep now finally but i will post more tomorrow, or shall i say later today.