My Arranged Marriage

Chapter 4

From Mr. Clark Adler's Point of View

I wake up slowly. I yawn a little, blinking my eyes into focus.I sit up, looking around, not quite remembering where I am at first.I look down and there's Zachary.And then I have a small moment of panic.I didn't... we didn't.God I was drunk, I don't know what we did.I look around the room. There's no sign of us being rowdy and the door is open so I'm going to assume we didn't.Zachary is stirring a little and then he grabs his pillow pulling it down closer to his chest.His back is to me.He inhales heavily. I lay back down, letting out a slow breath.Zachary must have fallen back to sleep.I want to lay my arm over him but I also don't want to startle himAfter about another hour, he wakes up.He rubs the ring on his finger absentmindedly.Suddenly like he had forgotten, he rolls over.He meets my eyes shyly, "good morning Mr. Adler."I lean in slowly, stopping for a second. I want his permission to kiss him.I smile a little, "good morning Zachary."He lays there staring into my eyes for a while.My curiosity wins out and before I can stop the question I say, "we didn't have sex did we?"He blushes a deep red and looks away, "no."His eyes avoid mine now.I ignore that the door is open. I move over him.He bites his lip softly, still avoiding my eyes.I breath out slow, hardly able to contain my desire.There's someone clearing their throat behind me and I quickly move off of him.I'm an adult and so is he and his parents always cutting in is getting old.Zachary sighs, clearly put out but he gets up.He looks at me, "if you want I'll pack soon and we can go."I promised him a couple weeks at my private beach house.He leans into the doorframe a little, biting his lip, "I'm going to shower really quick first. It's the next door down the hall."And then he whispers, "if you decide you want to join me."I listen as he pads down the hall. He's a really risky kind of guy. His parents are home and he knows it.I settle to myself that I won't be joining him. I even head down stairs so if he comes back, thinking we'll do it in bed that I won't be tempted.We haven't seen each other naked. We haven't made out. We've barely touched other than our arms.I can get it up plenty fine. I'm just nervous because I haven't had sex with a new person in a long time. My ex-wife was my only sexual partner and I have no idea what I'm doing with a guy to be honest.After about an hour and a half, Zachary comes downstairs, where I have been talking to Mr. Smith for a while now.Zachary looks slightly disappointed but he sits beside me.I do wonder what goes on inside his head sometimes.He stretches a little and looks at me, "I packed Mr. Adler."I look at him, "are you ready then?"He nods and gets his suitcase.I take it from him softly and load it into the trunk with mine.Zachary was careful with my car but it doesn't matter to me. It's just a for pleasure item.I slowly get into the car and he has his arms crossed.I gently rub his hand, "are you mad at me?"He sighs, "no Mr. Adler."I rub his thumb, "okay Zachary."He looks at me.I lean in close to kiss him. He leans in and I kiss him softly.I start to drive and then we get a plane to my beach house.He spends a lot of time talking with me.I rest my hand on his knee, "how did your parents take you coming out?"His breath hitches, "my mom took it pretty well but my dad disowned me basically. And screamed that I must be a mysterious John's son because my mother never shut her legs. How did your parents take it?"I swallow a little.I hesitate for a minute, "my dad uhh tried to beat the gay out of me. Mom couldn't stand to watch so she just stop coming home and if she was she was drunk."I swallow, "I did get married to a woman for a while. Ella, you meet her yesterday."He touches my hand, "I'm sorry Mr. Adler."I look at his hand, "oh, I'm okay Zachary. Do you want kids?"He looks at me, "yeah I want a couple kids."I watch him, "I'm getting older."And I don't add that I've had a son. I ignore how bad it hurts to think about it again. I avoid the thought mostly but sometimes I get pulled into a conversation where he comes up and I cry over it. That void that will never be filled.Jonah was the reason I never became a workaholic like I am now. Jonah was proof that even if my dad had been shit that I could be a good dad.Zachary nods, "I know."I sit back for a while and he looks at me, "are you going to take me tonight?"I look away, "maybe Zachary."I've never been with a guy.He turns away huffing softly.I know he must be frustrated with me ignoring his desire to have sex.He's waited for me. Wait for our marriage to be finalized and now I'm hesitant.We head to my house and he sets his suitcase on the bed.He sits beside it.I kiss him softly, "how about you go and get in the water a bit and I'll unpack for us?"He unpacks his suitcase and slides it into the closet with mine.He leaves the bedroom, I assume to go swimming.I find my way out to the living room where Zachary is.He curls up into the arm of the couch, pulling his legs out of the way.He has his head resting on the arm while he plays with his phone.I sit on the other end of the couch, "would you like to watch tv?"He gives a soft shrug as a answer.His shirt is rolled up in the back a little, exposing his skin.I bite my lip softly.He still plays on his phone.I take it from him, putting it up on a shelf he can't reach.He pouts, "give it back right now, Mr. Adler."I grab his chin softly, "we are honeymooning."He rolls his eyes and rolls over so he's facing the back of the couch.I kneel down beside him, "Zachary."He rolls over to face me, "yeah?"I rub his cheek, "I'm sorry. I'll give back your phone."I get his phone, "I don't mean to treat you like child."He looks up at me, "I don't like it when people take my phone."I nod, "I don't like it when people play on their phone and ignore me."He tucks it away, "I'm sorry Mr. Adler. I will try not to do that."I run my finger over my eyebrow, "do you want to go swim or... get in the hot tub?"He stands and moves close to me, "I'd like to get hot somewhere."I kiss him softly, "not yet."He goes and changes into a pair of swim trunks and a t-shirt.I decide to do the same.He is in the kitchen making himself a cocktail when I come back.He looks at me, "want one?"I look at his glass, "yes please."We have our cocktails in the hot tub on the beach.Zachary is falling asleep in his beach chair so I gently rub his hand, "you should go inside for a rest."He goes inside without arguing and later I come in to find his sleeping on the couch, cartoons playing in the background.I brush his hair back softly and kiss his forehead.I get out my lap top and work for a little bit.At about 6, I get up and make us some salad. Something light for dinner.Once I'm done tossing the salad I wake up Zachary.He joins me at the table, "thank you Mr. Adler."I clear my throat, "call me Clark please."He nods, "I'm sorry I keep forgetting."He eats quietly.I relax as I sip my glass of wine, "if you need anything Mrs. Williams is here at 3 every evening to bring in food. If you want something particular you can just ask her."He meets my eyes, "okay Clark."I stand once my plate is clear, holding my wine glass. I move around the table and make him look up to meet my eyes again.I bite my lip softly, "I think we should get in the hot tub for a bit Zachary."He stands and gets his glass too, "yes Clark."We make our way to the hot tub, climbing in together. He lays his head back, relaxed.I can see his erection growing under the water. I avoid looking at him for long though.We finish off the night laughing in the hot tub. And then we climb into bed together but he must be tired because he doesn't ask about sex. He just lays down on my arm and falls asleep.