I Found You

chapter 3

a/n: I'd suggest reading this chapter when you're not in a hurry for anything at all. just go slow and savouring every word because that's how it will make more sense i guess. it's also the first very significant chapter because it gives an insight into what kind of people Sarawat and Tine are in the story and how they connect.

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Wednesday 9:16 AM

From Watsyourproblem
•(gsnothome@gmail.com)

To Teepakorn •(t.teepakorn@gmail.com)

dear T,
with due respect, that's utter bullshit. if words returned back, so many people around me would have been stabbed already by their own tongue. and if kindness does find its way back, why do kind people suffer the most? hungry, empty and bitter. we crave kindness when we actually have that in abundance. why? because we give all of that to others.

i mean.. i don't know, i guess i just want to.. i mean for once, i want to be the other in someone's life. that other person in someone's life who they give a little share of that abundant kindness.

you know, i often think the idea of karma was an origination of criminals and politicians. they expect us be kind to the world while the world gives no fuck to you. you know.. scaring people into doing good.. to forgive the bad ones because karma will deal with them. here's the thing - it never does.

S

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Thursday 22:30 PM

From Teepakorn •(t.teepakorn@gmail.com)

To
Watsyourproblem•(gsnothome@gmail.com)

with due respect, i can't remember why i decided to talk to you at first place. but since you asked so many questions in your last mail, i couldn't simply avoid you because of (trigger warning: offensive term ) "my politeness."

the truth is i don't know. i don't know why nice people suffer. i am barely nice. i am just.. i don't know may be the regular guy who never offends anyone so i guess it's borderline nice may be. and yes you are right. karma is perhaps an illusion. or may be a concept with way too many flaws than people attribute to it. i mean.. if karma really worked, i would have been happily married because i was literally the cupid of my gang in college. may be karma works late. may be I'll get married on my deathbed. who cares anyway?

so yeah, I'm bitter too. i am frustrated that world doesn't work the way i believed it does when i was growing up. that life is not really a chocolate box. it's actually just a box that keeps closing in on you as you grow up. you're stuck while everything passes in front of your eyes.

And yet, i like to believe somewhere there must be a key to this box. i like to think the world hasn't forgotten me yet. and that it does give a fuck about the kind ones. or else what's the point really?

T

Ps. i hope you become the other in someone's life. see? i hope. isn't that a beautiful thing to do?

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Thursday 23:00 PM

From Watsyourproblem
•(gsnothome@gmail.com)

To Teepakorn •(t.teepakorn@gmail.com)

i just have two things to say.

a) you are entertaining a stranger's unarticulated, incoherent boring pseudocynical speech and even mentioning trigger warning (how considerate). so may be you're nicer than you give yourself credits for.

b) for the rest of the mail... pffff you really funny. good luck finding your key.

S

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