The Dream Boy

Chapter 11

"You know we are friends,"I say.
"Yer," he is not really pleased.
"We don't have any secrets,"I say.
"No...no!"I could tell he was looking for something else,"sorry what was the question?"
"Nothing don't worry,"I say. He leaves to go over to his 'girlfriend', I'm still confused about the whole situation, because I thought that he liked me, so why is he going around pretending to like his 'girlfriend', when he complains about her all the time.
I decided to go to the library (yes by myself) I needed some me time, so I sat down looked at my iphone and went on to my ask.fm and looked at the questions in my inbox, there must have been about 100:
What do you like in a boy?
A good sense of humour ;)
Opinions on Jackson
Nice guy :)
It went on...
I decided to leave the library and try and find Scarlett as it was getting to hot. Instead I found Jackson.
"Hey, just the person I want to see," he said," because my parents were thinking of moving to America,"
"Okay.." I say.
"And they are going to take my brother and I..." he carried on talking,"I was wondering if you were okay with me going, as your one of my friends.."
"Ummm.." I said, my voice inside my body was saying; don't let him go, say no!
"I mean if you don't want to.." he said.
"No, you should go," I say, his face drops, I know I said the wrong answer...
Sam runs up to me, after Jackson leaves he starts to paint.
"Tell..you did not say 'no, you don't mind'' I stare at him,"you idiot!"
"I didn't know...," I let my voice trail off.
"Right we need to fix this, but I don't know how," he disappears, I am left so confused, but inside it is a great feeling that some one at actually likes me!
In English, Sam passes me a note:
I HAVE GOT AN IDEA
I write:
WHAT IDEA?
I haven't decided whether I like him...
He writes:
TELL U IN A SEC
I smile. This plan is going to be interesting...
Sam sat next to me,"So...," he said," we need him to realise how much you like him,"
"But... I don't even know..." I say.
"That doesn't matter now do you want to lose him forever or pretend to like him,"Sam swiftly interrupted me.
"Okay fine..."
"Go on, go over there and talk to him," Sam pushes me towards him. I feel really awkward as I have never flirted with a guy in my life. I walk over to him and smile.
"Hey,"
"Hey.." He says awkwardly,"what were you talking to Sam about?"
"Errr..." I try and quickly make up something,"his Birthday party.."
"That was last week," he replies, I blush I have just made a fool of my self...
"So, how is life?" I realised that this conversation is getting really awkward and I leave.
"So how did it go?" Sam asks.
"Not very well.."I say,"I keep blushing and making a fool of myself".
"That's great," Sam smiles.
"How exactly?" I ask.
"That's means you like him, scrap this plan," Sam says. I doubt I like him,but I'll go with this plan...just for Sam's sake...
I also realise that telling someone that you love is really hard thing as they might not love you back. The three words: I love you are extremely hard to say to someone, you see films and books were they love each other back and it is like a fairly tale, but unfortunately this is reality and not a dream.
I decided to ask Jackson whether he liked me. I was so nervous that I just wanted to hide in the toilet and not come out, but I knew this had to be done.
"Hey," I say waving to Jackson.
"Hi," he walks over.
"We need to talk..." I say.
"Okay.." He replies.
" I found your notebook saying that you liked me.." Jackson interrupts me.
"Sorry..what?"
"I know... You like me," I say, blushing.
"I don't..."
"You don't need to pretend," I say.
"Listen Poppy, I used to like... I really did, but I like a different girl. Look I'm sorry, but I thought you wanted to be
just friends," my heart feels like it has melted, when I heard Jackson. I feel like someone has just ripped my heart .... I start to run to the toilets, and wish we never even had this conversation I can heard him calling my name, but I don't care. He doesn't like me! Tears start to pour out of my eyes... Everything looks blurry. I can roughly see him and I slam the corridor door and keep running to the girl's toilets. He keeps running after me, but I want him to disappear into thin air. Suddenly all these feelings pour out that I have never felt before...