~ 𝓞𝓾𝓶𝓪𝓶𝓲 𝓞𝓷𝓮𝓼𝓱𝓸𝓽𝓼 ~

Explanation

soooooo~ its been a year and 5-6 days, as of writing this, that i kiiiinddaaaa disappeared out of the face of earth. and i think its time for an explanation.

to get stuff out of the way, will i be returning here? in short, absolutely not. 

why, you may ask? well, what i need to let'cha know is that throughout december of 2020 - 2021 i had a crisis about my own consciousness in my body. these scenarios have sort of been used to comfort and calm down my weird thoughts. but after a while it became more of a chore than it had a comfort thing. 

along with that, after finding out i am an irl of myself, it felt very 'disgusting' and uncomforting to even think about myself and amami in these scenarios. ergo, i stopped writing this and lost interest in writing for a while. 

the disgust i felt after i reread all of this was enough to make me never return. and when have you seen me fantasize about a relationship with someone~? i mean cmonn... 

nonetheless.. i dont necessarily owe anyone an explanation but i had to say something if anyone ever found this and actually read through it. so for aaaaanyonneee that looked forward to next chapters, that wont be happening. not in a week, not in a thousand years.  

i also do want to say that if youre going to actually send me hate for admitting im an irl, or youre going to try and 'reality check me' by saying "kokichis fictional." i just wanna let'cha know youre engaging in this, ergo more people will see it. <3

kiddingggg... but i wont even be here to look at it so wasted effort on me. besides, its not affecting me in the slightest. you dont know who i am and will never know what is going on behind the scenes.

thats all ive gotta say for myself.

thanks for engaging in this and making it rather popular~

- kokichi ouma