if only you knew | lee heeseung

chapter four

y/n pov

i should've seen this coming... i knew how sneaky heeseung was so why did i do this to myself?

i sigh as i walk beside heeseung. i should be happy he's holding my hand but i'm not. i constantly remind myself that this is not real and that this is for my sake and his benefit.

i hear heeseung mumbling to himself as we walk somewhere. he hasn't told me where but i'm guessing it's a place to eat. it's sunday afternoon and we were able to finish our project yesterday so we could proceed with our plans today.

my thoughts are interrupted by heeseung's phone buzzing.

"hello?" he answers. i can hear someone shouting at him but i can't make out the words.

"yes, i'm serious" heeseung responds.

"i am with her right now" he frowns.

"don't bother, i don't have to prove anything to you" is the last thing he says before he hangs up.

he turns to look at me.

"where do you wanna go eat?"

i picked out a corner restaurant not too far from where we were walking. i honestly just picked the closest place to us. i feel like heeseung's patience is running low at the moment so i'd rather not bother him too much.

we find a table to sit at and wait for someone to come attend us.

"we don't have to show my stepfather in person, but since we're supposed to be dating, we have to act like it. like posting on social media and show it in public" he tells me as he takes out his phone from his pocket.

"s-show it in public?" i ask questioning what he meant by that.

"smiling at each other, holding hands, kissing... stuff like that" he says nonchalantly.

"kissing!?" i ask in shock.

even if i had his permission, it just wouldn't feel right.

"yes, kissing. don't tell me... you haven't had your first kiss yet??" he makes fun of me.

"w-well unlike you, i still have a year left of high school. plus, who said i have to have my first kiss at this age?" i pout and cross my arms.

he just laughs and tells the waiter who just arrived what he wanted. after him, i told the waiter what i wanted as well and we waited in silence. awkward silence.

this sudden turn of events caught me off guard. will i be able to confess to heeseung if we keep this up?

i sigh as i thank the waiter for bringing by the food.

"let's take a picture so i can post it" he says as he grabs his camera.

"this soon?" i ask him.

"we gotta start somewhere" he shrugs his shoulders.

he brings his camera up in selfie mode and puts up a peace sign. i do the same and give a slight smile as he takes the picture.

"what's your username?"

i forgot he doesn't follow me back...

"i follow you... just look up my name on your followers" i tell him as i grab my drink and take a sip from it.

should i try to move on? he clearly has no intentions of getting into a serious relationship. i bet there's not even chance i can get him to like me before he graduates.

"why do you look like that?" he looks up from his phone.

"why do you think?" i sigh and eat my food silently.