short stories

The girl who cried behind her smile

There's something intriguing about the way a girl thinks. Something almost confusing about what she does and why she does it. Do you ever feel that way? Like you can never fully understand the way someone thinks? Of course, this is a part of human nature. To be curious about what someone is thinking behind all their smiles and laughs and phrases like "I'm fine" and "everything's okay"

But it's not. She's not fine and everything's not okay when she says it is. It's hard to know when she's telling those lies, because she has trained herself to shut it all out. You look in her eyes and you see nothing. So you believe her, or you ignore it and carry on with your life. But she doesn't. She continues with the way she is, continues to make everyone else happy so they don't have to know about the growing loneliness she feels. She convinces them to look away, and think that her smiles are true, and her laughs are genuine. And she convinces you that she is fine and everything's okay.

And then she starts to wonder. And she starts to cry. And she starts to doubt. And that's when it all falls for her. Because when she doubts, and wonders, and cries, that's when she knows that she's not alright. But because she has everyone convinced she is happy, she can't tell them the truth. They'll look at her different. But they already do, don't they? She starts to feel lonely, even when she's not alone. She starts to pull away, and ignore people and shut out everyone but herself. And you wonder, why does she cry? And why does she doubt? And what does wonder about?

And while everyone else thinks she's fine, inside she feels worse each and every day. But she can't tell her friends because they won't understand. They won't understand why she is thinking the things she is. They won't understand why she pulls away and shuts them out, then goes back to normal days later. Because they don't get it. They don't understand that for her to make everyone happy is more important than her own happiness.  So she pretends to be okay with everyone leaving her behind. She pretends to be fine with the fact that she loses everyone because she can't explain why she is the way she is. She pretends it doesn't hurt when she tries to speak up, but no one hears her shout.

And it's in that moment when she becomes intriguing. Confusing. Because you would never suspect to see a break down beneath that smile. You would never know the tears hidden in that laugh. You would never hear her voice breaking on those familiar phrases. You would never notice until it is too late. Until she has become broken more than she thought she would end up. Until she is a shell and nothing more than a shadow. And yet she continues to convince you. Persuade you. Make you think she is still smiling.

Even when she is crying.

Even when she is screaming.

Even when she is dying.

Because the girl who cried behind the smile, the girl who screamed behind the laugh, the girl who choked on the "its fine" and "everything's okay"

She's still there...

this is a little short story that just came to me when i was writing a song. it has some of my own emotions and expressions in there because it kinda portrays me a tiny bit.i hope you guys like it, and remember to comment and vote

OH! and if you have any ideas or you want me to do a short little story then just give me like an idea and ill write it and dedicate it to you :)

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