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𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐅𝐎𝐔𝐑. | ❛ Ill At Ease. ❜
JAMIE FIDDLED WITH HER BRACELET AS SHE LOOKED AT HER REFLECTION. A frown etched onto her features as she was contemplating about showing up at Tony's party. The desire to stay in bed and watch her favorite comfort movie was tempting and she almost gave in, but knowing her friends they would drag her out of her room. Jamie was the life of the party, according to Tony, and she had to share a laugh at that. She remembers the others pleading her to show up, a sparkle painting their eyes at the presence of the Heroine. She couldn't say no, so here she was hiding in the bathroom, away from prying eyes as she had a nervous breakdown.
Her nerves have been nagging her ever since HYDRA captured her. Flashbacks, insomnia, and feelings of overwhelmingness are nothing new for Jamie. Bruce reminded her that it's her PTSD kicking in and that it's heightened because she was put in the same spot as 150 years ago. But it was torturing her. Every single reminder and reminiscence in the past that she has repressed has come bubbling up to the surface, squeezing her chest till she lost air from her lungs. Her night terror hasn't been better. She can still see Strucker's sickening smile inside her mind, tormenting her and making her life a living hell.
Although she tries to reassure the others, they can clearly see her being badly affected by it. She's been more quiet than usual, often staring at empty space, and putting up a brave face as she busies herself with training the new employees at the Avengers Tower. Bruce and Clint are heavily intimidated by her change of demeanor and have been keeping their distance. Thor and Tony check up on her through small gestures like buying her favorite coffee, a pat on the shoulder, and including her with their schemes and ideas since they value her opinion a lot.
Natasha and Steve, however, have been by her side most of the time. The redhead had been worried sick ever since she saw her for the first time after months of searching. Her heart broke at the sight of her, anger coursing through her veins at the fact that HYDRA had something to do with it. She remembers bursting into tears, away from prying eyes as she poured her worries to her best friend, feeling her pain and trying to cease her bruised heart. She cried at how fragile she looked, the sight almost impossible to believe since Jamie never let her guard down. Steve has been more cautious and hesitant with his approach, not wanting to overwhelm her with so many people looking out for her.
Jamie has been grateful for their support and appreciates every little thing they've done to make her feel better. Her heart flutters, their kind gesture making her feel loved and seen. She considered her fellow Avengers close acquaintances and she's grown a soft spot for all of them. They understood her, knowing where she came from and the great thing about it was that she was not alone. She wouldn't say she could act like her full self, but she was comfortable with showing her nature, something they all can relate to.
The ex-soldier let out a shaky exhale, feeling her heart thumping against her chest. Her eyes wandered over her choice of clothing. She wore a simple black dress with long sleeves, the adorn hugging her curves like water. She hummed with satisfaction, reminding to thank her kind student for loaning her dress. She had to stifle a laugh, Robin's voice echoing inside her mind.
