Unseen Evil

IV

a/n Okay guys i think this one is going to be a heavy chapter for mental health issues so if you have triggers towards this please don't read on. Stay safe guys.

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No one had mentioned what happened that day since then, or i just haven't given them the chance. I have been leaving earlier to do extra training or resource grinding, and I would be coming back as late as i possibly could.  All of this to avoid talking about what happened, because i honestly didn't really know. 

All through my life I had gone through this, usually i would have someone there but ever since he had been locked up, I've had to fend for myself. That didn't always work. So, i used other such methods to help me deal with myself, ones that wouldn't be advised by my old therapist, Puffy. I knew that i should go back to seeing her but i was too afraid to ask for help.

Laying on my mattress again, I contemplated life. Was it worth it if there was nothing good in it? All the good things are distractions from the reality and pain of life. I wondered what Dream is doing right now, probably having a better time than me. I hope Sam wasn't treating him too badly... 

Exhaling deeply, i rolled onto my side. Never would I make the mistake again of pinning all my hope on one person. Every time I had put my faith in someone, they had let me down. Many others that had taken my hope and they tore it to shreds. Then I tried to pick up those pieces, but they were too broken to put back together. So, I created myself a façade of positivity and hope. If there was one thing that Dream, and I had most in common it was the mask. Now, since he was gone, probably for good, I may as well loose the old me too.

I let my heavy eyelids close over, letting sleep take over me.

Grass tickled my bare feet as i ran through the field, well ran is a stretch, I would say that i was more being dragged by Clay. There were flowers scattered like stars among the long grass. The setting sun illuminated the landscape. Reds, oranges and pinks painted the sky like my watercolours did paper.

Our chatter and laughter filled the air around us as we ran back home. However, that atmosphere didn't last long as we came over the crest of the hill overlooking out village. Screams of adults and children silenced us. I looked over into his eyes, obvious fear shown in them. I looked back to the village and then back at Clay. Then i started running.

Fire licked around me as I was dragged away kicking and screaming. I reached out for my grandmother's hand, but I was pulled to far away. I saw her face getting eaten by the fire. I cried out and tried so hard to get back to the only family I had left, if only this idiot would stop preventing me from doing so. Even if it was too late, I still wanted to at least try and save them. "Get off of me!" I screeched at the top of my lungs, desperate to escape the grasp of whoever had a hold of me i was not only fighting against the person who was 'saving' my life, but also myself now. He kept pulling me away, but i kept fighting. I spun around and raked my nails across his face. Blood started to for over the cuts, and he winced. Only now i recognised him but i kept fighting against him. I wanted my family back. The world was beginning to spin and sway around me. My fighting attempts to get away were becoming slower and weaker quickly. So, I gave up and let the darkness overcome me.

My body was drenched in sweat when i woke up, and I must have woken the other up because not so long after i woke both Techno and Phil burst into my room.

Technoblade POV

I burst into her room quickly after i had heard the scream, it had made my blood run cold. I glanced quickly at Phil.  Her eyes were red with tears. She had shock written all across her face. I stepped forward out of the hallway and into the darkness of her room. Carefully, i edged my way towards her, sitting next to her on the bed. Awkwardly, I pushed the strand of hair that had fallen in front of my eyes and said, "What happened y/n? You, okay?"

The thing that happened next surprised me. I just expected her to run straight out of the door. Instead, she flung his arms around me in a tight embrace. I went completely rigid for a few moments unable to comprehend what was happening. After a few moments, I hugged her back. I could see Phil back out of the door and silently close it behind him. She was crying, I wasn't very good with situations like this. 

When she pulled away, I could see that he had been crying a lot more than I had noticed before. Her eyes were completely red, and her cheeks were flushed. "Hey, hey, come here." I could see that she was starting to cry again. There was an a few awkward moments of silence where she wiped his eyes and composed himself. I didn't press her for any answers, she would tell me in her own time. I just sat there waiting, because if she had wanted me to leave, she would have asked, right? About a minute had passed and she hadn't said anything. I was going to be patient with her.

"Are you okay? You don't have to tell me anything, but I just want to know." I had to ask her this because if she wasn't alright, I would feel so guilty for not checking on her. Her breaths just slowed as she took deeper and deeper breaths. Out of nowhere he said, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Techno, i'm an awful person and..."

He broke down into tears and just kept repeating the words I'm sorry. I had no idea what to do. I had no experience with anything like this. In the end I just calmly said, "Hey, it's going to be okay." Before i pulled her into another embrace.

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Bit of a longer chapter coming in at 1038 words, thanks for reading :]]

~Eriscus