Aribelle [discontinued]

15. Fuck Him

And maybe I'm just not as interesting

As the girls, you had before

But God, you couldn't have cared less

About someone who loved you more

I'd say you broke my heart

But you broke much more than that

Now I don't want your sympathy

I just want myself back

- Olivia Rodrigo

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Aribelle

Did I get my hopes up too quickly? Did he realize I wasn't worth it during the date or was he just leading me on the entire time? He made me feel special only to leave me questioning myself for the next two weeks. Men, all they do is fuck you up.

The day after the date I checked my phone every five minutes throughout the day trying to figure out if River would text me. And that continued for three more days before I finally realized he wouldn't be texting or calling anytime soon. I thought about making the first move but couldn't bring myself to do it.

My days went on as normal, waking up late for class and rushing before the professor began the lecture. Doing homework in between classes and then back to my apartment. Quinn's been really bitter since River never contacted me after our date. Whenever she sees me she remembers him and grumbles about him being an asshole. Caro just looks at me with this pitiful smile as she tried to calm her down so she doesn't accidentally burn the food she was cooking.

I blame myself though. I fell for how sweet he was in the beginning only for him to leave me high and dry, sad over someone who I'd only seen twice. But, it felt nice to have someone be there in a romantic sense, even if it only lasted one night.

I stared up at my ceiling, stuck in my own head. The moon shone from my window, only dimmed a little by my sheer curtains. A knock on my door pulled me out of my thoughts. I turned my head to the door and responded, "Come in."

Caro stuck her head through the door after she opened it and smiled at me, "Want company?"

"Sure." I watch as she lets herself in, then closes the door behind her. She gets on my bed and lies down next to me mimicking my position.

"Feeling better?"

"No, not really." I laugh lightly. and look back up at the ceiling. "You know, I think I set myself up to be disappointed and hurt. Sure, I only knew River for like three days, but ever since I was a kid I just wanted to feel real love you know. I've always been hurt in return."

Caro faced me, but I kept my eyes up. "I'm only 20, I shouldn't be so hurt over one guy. So why does my heart feel like its breaking? And why'd he have to be so damn attractive!"

"It's like you said, you've always wanted to feel loved. I think never feeling true love makes you yearn for it so much more and it makes situations like these hurt more than you think they should. River made you feel special, and he gave you hope and now you feel like that hope is gone but I promise you it's not Bells. He fucked up, he's missing out on the baddest bitch in the world. He may not have seen how truly worthy you are but someone will, okay?"

I nod silently, a stray tear falls as I listen to Caro's words.

"Quinn may not be in here telling you this, but I want you to know that she cares and she's worried about you. She's grumbling about finding him so she can beat his ass as we speak." I choke out a laugh, making more tears fall. I turn to look at Caro, "Thanks."

"No problem bitch. Now wipe those tears from your face and say fuck him." She smiles big then makes her way out of my room, leaving me in the dark smiling to myself.

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2 days later

"Alright guys, I have to confess something." Caro says from the other side of the booth. Quinn continues to eat her nuggets, humming in acknowledgement.

"What?" I ask looking at her.

"So, I've kinda been dating this girl for like a week."

"Aww that's so cute!"

"Bitch a week?!" Quinn and I said at the same time.

"Cute? The fuck you mean Bells? She shouldv'e told us when she met her, not a week after they're already dating. How long has this been going on?" Quinn asks as she dips her nugget in her polynesian sauce.

"Like a little over a month." Caro winces.

"Caro it's fine-"

"No it's not. Type of best friend keeps a month long love life from her friends." Quinn interrupts.

"Well I was gonna say something when we made things official but I didn't think Bells would want to hear about that considering you know who?"

"Who? Ocean ain't got nothing to do with this." Quinn says and I can't help but to choke on my sweet tea when I hear her call him 'Ocean'.

"Quinn.." I chuckle lightly, "Stop being a bitch for one second and be happy for our best friend. She has a whole girlfriend! I'm happy for you C." I smile at Caro and she smiles back gleefully.

"Yeah fine. Sorry. Lake still ain't shit though" she mumbles eating her last nugget.

"Thanks Quinn. Anyways, she wants to meet you guys this weekend. Please please come to dinner with us, I think she's bringing her brother though."

"Good, maybe we can get Aribelle put on." Quinn perks up and laughs wrapping her arm around my neck.

"Why me?" I huff trying to get her arm off me.

"The best way to get over one man is to get under another one right?" She pulls me closer, my head in her neck. Why is she so strong?

"Wrong! Bells don't listen to that hoe." Caro rolls her eyes. "And let her go before you suffocate her in your stank."

"Oh fuck off white girl. The only thing stank is your pussy." She finally unhands me and gives Caro her middle finger.

"That's not what my girlfriend says when she eats me out though bitch."

They may bicker but fuck it if I don't love them. I think to myself with my head down, sipping the rest of my drink with the sounds of their bickering continuing on.

And fuck River.

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