His Willow

chapter 11 - books and apologising

why is it so difficult to choose what to have for breakfast? there's so many options it's so hard to choose. I could make a list on how many good things you can have for breakfast. but nothing will beat raspberry pancakes.

and I know that sounds odd but it's so good.

I put my empty plate in the dishwasher and clean my hands as they were dirty from my pancakes. even though I did use cutlery, of course. they still get messy for some reason?

it was Thursday today. the day before my clothes get released for people to buy. quite a lot of emotions are flowing through me right now but I'm trying to ignore them and just focus on how excited I am. Michelle did say that if it goes well my opportunities may come my way.

which is very exciting because I've always wanted my own brand. like doing my own stuff, how cool would that be. maybe one day, a girl can dream big.

I didn't have much planned today, Sophie did ask me if I wanted to hang around with her and the rest of her friends today. so I'll probably go over to her house later.

I'm sure Reece probably won't want me there because of what happened the other day but I've still got the others I guess.

I didn't mean to upset him, I was just trying to help and I didn't want to anger him more than I already did so I left.

hopefully he'll talk to me or let me talk to him soon.

I snap out of my thoughts by the sound of my dads voice.

"good morning sweetheart" my dad says coming into the kitchen.

"good morning dad, I'm glad your back" I say giving him a hug as I got closer to him.

he just came back from a day trip to a place that was few hours away. I know it's only a day but I just don't like how he has to be away for work.

he enjoys it and that's all that matters.

"when's your next trip?" I ask him as I place my glass on the counter beside me.

"a week today actually, it's not as far as the last one though" he says giving me a smile before he takes a seat on the nearest stool.

I simply nod before going back to the kitchen to clean up the pan from my pancakes.

"I forgot to tell you, someone came for you this morning but you were asleep. he said he wanted to give you something and told me to give it you when you wake" my dad announces as he gets up from his seat and picks something up from the coffee table in the lounge.

my eyebrows furrow in confusion. who would have came at that time?

he hands me this package thing with a little not on top.

it's wrapped in this basic white paper and the note is just simply stuck on top.

I read the note first as I take it off the paper.

I'll be in the libary today, I want to apologise.
Reece.

I widen as my eyes as I realise it's from him.

I smile at the note as I put it down to open whatever was in the wrapping paper.

I open it to see the title of 'the things we never said'

no way.

I can't believe he remembered. I've wanted this book in like forever how the hell has he found it.

my smile breaks out into a grin straight away as I stare at the book.

he actually listens to me.

"thank you dad, I'm going to get going to the libary soon, I'll see you later okay?" I ask him as he just nods while he's engrossed in 'This Morning'

what can I say? he likes his tv shows.

I put my trainers on as I grab the book, my phone and my keys and head to my car.

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I walk into the libary as the familiar bell goes off as I walk in.

Elsie wasn't at the desk so I'm guessing she's in the back organising books.

I look down the aisle to where are usual table is and he's sat there reading a book with he's hands rests on the table.

I take a few seconds to take his appearance in.

he's wearing jogging bottom cargos with a plain grey jumper. he looks really relaxed.

definitely more relaxed than he was last night.

all I saw in him last night was anger and stress.

him being here, in the libary reading you can tell he's at peace.

I stop staring because I guess it looks a bit strange from afar I guess.

I get closer and see him look up.

"hi" I whisper slightly as I take a seat across from him.

he doesn't say anything like he is nervous to hear what I say.

"look I'm sorry for snappin-" I cut him off by pulling him into a hug.

he seems so tense at first but then he wraps his arms around my waist and stands up so I can hug him better considering he was sitting down and I was standing.

"thank you so much for the book! you literally have no idea how much I've wanted this. where did you find it? I've literally looked everywhere for this bad boy" I ramble as we both sit down back again.

he scratches his head as he meets my eyes once again.

"I've had it for a while, it's been on my bookshelf for quite a while now. I've read it, it's a good book" he says looking down at his rings and twisting them slightly around his fingers.

"and you don't have to apologise for shouting at me. I overstepped when I even asked you what's wrong because that's business, so I'm sorry. just know you can talk to me about anything okay" I say giving him a soft smile.

he returns the smile and nods.

"did you hear about Sophie's pool thing she's doing. she invited me, are you going?" I ask messing with the bracelet on my wrist hoping his answer is yes.

I've realised i look his presence more than a lot of people even though he doesn't talk much, but that's okay. and now knowing he listens it excites me even more when I talk to him about random subjects.

"yeah I'll be there" he nods at me again before looking back at his book.

I try to hide my smile by looking down at the book below.