But if one of us dies//Billie eilish

{pt 5}

(TWD THIS STORY TALKS A LOT ABOUT DEPRESSION, AND ABUSE. AND SUBSTANCE ABUSE! If you are sensitive to those topics this story isn't for you!)

*Jamies Pov*

I see Karma's eyes widen, my heart drops. I start thinking a million things, what am I gonna wear, did we get in? Am I actually gonna meet my person.. Am I actually gonna meet the person I don't even know but saved my life.. Is she gonna finally know I exist..?

I shake my face after zoning out in my own thoughts, loom at Karma as he sighs, and says
the words "we didn't get in." I sigh as well I'm disappointment. We both look at each other "it was worth a try tho." Karma says looking at me also in sadness.

We both walk to the couch and flop down to watch, the walking dead. For the next hour or so still heartbroken, we are already on season 2 and we just restarted it last night me and karma love to watch the walking dead together. Call me a geek if you want.
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Its 6:26pm now and karma is on his phone looking at post from billies party, I sigh and lean my head on his shoulder watching the videos and pictures from the party, when I see the address in the corner of the video.

I gasp really loudly and look at karma, he looks at me with confusion. And i point at the corner of the video where the street name and then fast forward to the part where it shows the house number. He looks back at me, checks how far the party is and surprisingly only 30 minute drive.

I yank Karma out of his spot and push him inside his room for us to get ready, he yelled at me "I don't even know what to wear! Help meeee" I scoff and pick out a Jean jacket, a purple and black graphic t shirt and thrifted baggy jeans and all black retro 4's

"Okay now help me you jerk. He shuffles around the drawer he has in his room for me and pick out, a black multicolored graphic t shirt. Black cargo pants and black Air Forces.

Karma does my make up, doesn't take to long. He's actually so good at it. I went for a natural look, I didn't wanna seem like I was trying to hard. I make sure to put on all my jewelry, no outfit is done without jewelry.. if you don't know that simple. You cant dress.

"JAMIE COME ONNNNN" I hear karma yell from the front door, I rush over to him and ask if he has everything he nods and we walk to the car. Karma brings up the address in the gps. It was 30 minutes plus traffic so around 5 extra minutes.

"How tf are we even gonna get in Jamie?"
I look at him and respond with "you better start throwing ideas, you have such a big head and what in there? Oxygen-? Think bitch think." I laugh he puts his hand over his chest and acts hurt and laughs along.

"Okay maybe we can sneak around the back, or just sneak in the front door, I bet it will be straight open with teenagers dead drunk out in the front. Nobody will notice hopefully."

If I'm being honest I'm pretty nervous, I've 1. Never been out to a party, and I'm not very good at making friends I'm in over my head right now. My heart was "6 feet under"my ass right now.

We pull up about a block down so we don't get caught, we walk and suck on the side of the cars till we make it to the house, as Karma expected, the door is open and about 20 people are outside dead drunk or making out. I felt so nauseous. I never do things like this, karma looks at me and counts down to three when he sees an opening to run past everyone and go.

"1...2...3! He wishpers then runs from the side of the car discreetly and makes it in the house, I froze.. I started to breathe heavily. He waved his hands in the air to signal for me to come in and I couldn't. And now was not the time to pussy out..

I sit down and lean against the car, pull out my phone and text Karma.

I don't think Ive ever been so nervous! I try to calm myself down and work up to running in, so I peek across the lawn see who's around and if I can quickly run across the street and make it in.

I finally have an opening. I make a run for it and so far so good, I run back to see if anyone noticed before I run in, I look back forward and come crashing down and so does everything else. When I look up to hear a loud

"WHAT THE FUCK MAN! WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM. WATCH WHERE YOUR GOING YOU BITCH, DONT YOU HAVE EYES"

I froze as everyone turned to look at me , and the music stopped.. S-s

"S-s WHAT YOU CANT SPEAK ENGLISH NOW? YOU JUST FUCKED UP MY 200 DOLLAR JACKET, I HOPE YO"-

He says before getting cut off by Billie.
"Alright dude, she gets it. It was an accident relax. Don't be such a dick." She says before helping me up and making him walk away. I'm just sitting here in shock. Like is Billie fucking eilish right in front of me right now.....

"Hey I'm sorry about Brandon, he's a asshole sometimes are you okay?" She asks

My jaw drops wide open as I stare into her eyes. She's so beautiful even in person. I'm shitting bricks right now. She waves her hand in my face and that makes me come back to to reality. She laughs and asks "that was a tough fall you sure there's no brain damage?"

I giggle. And stop quickly because oh boy was it gross. "I-m alright." I say

She claps and says "HEY GUYS SHE TALKS EVERYONE." And laughs while shaking her head which also made me laugh. "It's alright" she says calmly while signaling me to follow her.

She's walking me into her room..me. Little ole me walking into billies room.!! WHATTT on the inside I was fucking jumping, throwing up, crying and twirling in circles.

But I'm the outside I was a nervous reck. I didn't know what to say or act.

"Here, take this and go in there." She says handing me a spare T shirt since I had nacho dip all over my shirt. I blush whilst mumbling"Th-ank you." And heading in her bathroom to change.
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*THIS CHAPTER HAS COME TO AN END*

A/n: THANK YOU FOR READING! I love you guys! Let me know if you have any predictions or tips! Sorry for any misspelled words it's unedited and I just wanna get more parts out there and not make you guys wait so much!