~ faded sounds ~
"celeste ??....."
~ silence ~
"celeste??" he said louder
"hm?" my voice cracked
"I said did you see who did this ?" cop asked me
~ i shook my head no , as tears fell down my face ~
"listen we're gonna find who did this okay ?" he said to me
"mhm" i cried
~ tears were just falling , no noise just tears rushing down my face ~
"do you need somewhere to sleep tonight ?" he asked
"i'd like to go home now" i said quickly
"home but -
"home" i said
"okay" he said
~ i got up and left quickly , i sat in my car , i looked down and saw our family picture i never took out of my car , i began crying , all i could think about was my last words to my father ~
~ flash back ~
"i hate you , get out"
~ tears fell , i hadn't gotten a chance to apologize to my father. all he did was care for us both and i told him i hated him . The funeral for them was happening so soon i didn't know why ~
~ as i'm sitting i got a text from the man , he never told me his name ~
text messages ~
"hello love ..." he said
~ i left him on read. then he called but i hadn't answered , as bad as i wanted to talk to him , i couldn't without breaking down ~
"is everything okay ?.." he asked
"no and it never will be , i had a great short time with you but i need to be left alone" i said to him
"wait , talk to me what's wrong ?" he asked
"I lost someone yesterday .." i typed
"so did i ... i found out when i got home last night. Two people to be exact.." he typed
"i'm so sorry .." i typed
"i cope differently, im fine . i'm handling it" he said
"oh .. well this is something that i can't handle. Just um i guess find someone else , i won't be around for much longer" i typed
~ i turned my phone off and cried on my way home ~
~ i put on my father's favorite black hoodie & my mothers leggings & my sisters scrunchies she'd always wear when she was little , i grabbed a bottle and pills and drank my life way ... shoving the pills down my throat ... next thing i know i was unconscious...
tbc ..
