A Promise: Unedited

Promise

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Elizabeth's POV

(a few month ago)

Napapaisip ako kung kailan ko balak sabihin sakanila ang kalagayan ko ng walang pag aalala at awa sa mga mata nila

I always think about, why me?

I mean marami namang tao sa mundo pero bat ako ung nakakuha ng sakit na ganto?

I saw on fb din na ung mga gustong mag kasakit ay di nag kakasakit and those people who wanted to survive, dies; those people who wanted to live long have an illness that it is imposible for them to survive yet they prayed.

I always think why

I mean sa lahat ng taong gustong mag karoon ng sakit na ganto ako pa talaga iyong nakakuha. I wanted to live and breath the fresh air yet I can't. I always need some tube to survive when I lost consciousness and I need to kept the temperature not high and not low, I always want to live freely without any rules, time, without losing my conscious when I'm tired, without having a nose bleed that will worry my family and friends.

I always think of my life if I don't have these diseases

Will I live freely?

Will I go everywhere without any hospital things?

Will I be happy?

Will I be healthy?

Will I be a pulis right now?

Will I be a soldier?

Will I be a traveler?

Will I smile without hinding the pain?

Will I laugh with my family without hiding anything?

Will the guilt leave me?

Will my life be un miserable?

Will I go to the amusement park with my family?

Will they look at me without any pity on their eyes?

Will my body be free and can go every where without any pills?

But with this illness of mine I always think of

Will I survive?

Will people around me look at me with smiles and without any pitiness?

Will I hide the pain?

Will my guilt tell them?

Will I live a little longer?

I drift on reality when someone spoke

"Jin? Are you ok?" Joy ask me

"Joy?"

"yes Jin?"

"will I survive this disease?" I ask trying to be hopefull yet I know that she can sense my un-hoping voice. I mean who am I kidding? This is Janice Oley Yassy de Villa, my high school friend who knows me better and can read you even if you're a good at hiding things, I mean she is a good investigator or agent for bieng good at finding the truth and if someone is hiding something-emotions but she know that she can't help me now but she can read me on how I speak and on how she can see my face

"you're going to be ok as long at you take your treatment"

"will that help me survive?"

"yes?" nag aalanganin niyang saad