TW: MENTION OF SUICIDE AND SELF HARM
the summer before high school had ups and downs. me and will fought a lot, i mean a lot. out of the 9 years we knew each other, we didn't fight near as much as we did.
we had fights about stupid shit. something i said, something i did, something i didn't do. we had a fight out in the rain outside my house cause i wasn't in the mood to play d&d and told him that it wasn't my fault that he didn't like girls. he came out to me a few weeks before and i accepted it, though i couldn't, and really, still can't accept myself. i regretted it as soon as i said it to him. after he left, i grabbed lucas and we went across town to go talk to him and apologise, something i have learned i wasn't good at unless i really liked them.
before all the shit that went down with the fights and everything, me and will, with lucas and max, always went to the movie theater. robin who we weren't really close with but is close friends with steve, my sisters ex boyfriend and a parental figure to me and my friends, snuck us in through the back because they worked at the mall scooping ice cream. me and will always sat next to each other and max and lucas would find empty seats and sat in them if there were two beside each other. when people asked why me and will sat together we would tell them that we were friends (which was true but i wanted to be more) and there wasn't anywhere else to sit.
if you ask me, if the fighting with will, my best friend and the love of my life, didn't happen, i would say that summer was when i was the happiest. i didn't think about anything bad, or tried to do anything bad to myself. i qas always sorta suicidal but i wouldn't admit it. i would cut on my stomach and hips, because those are always covered, so no one suspected anything.
i wish everything stayed exactly the way it did. but it didn't. at the end of summer, will, jonathan, jane (the girl that we found in the woods looking for will), hopper, and joyce, moved to california,, and for the first time, i would be starting a new school without the first person i became friends with.
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take me back to the day we met | byler
Fanfictionever since me and will met, so since we were 5, we spent a lot of time together. our friendship was so strong it was practically unbreakable, or so we thought. ever since that day, we stopped talking. i feel like shit, 4 years later.
