TW: MENTION OF SELF-HARM
i don't know why, but i decided to go to california today, if not to see will, to see nancy. jonathan and her have broke up but they share an apartment cause they go to the same school.
i knocked on the byers door and joyce answered.
"mike! good to see you. are you okay?" she said. i didn't say anything. i shook my head and she pulled me into a hug and i just cried.
i was violently shaking and couldn't stop. my anxiety and depression kicking my ass. i looked like shit apparently.
joyce hugged me tighter and i screamed
"t-that hu-hurt." i muttered.
"it wasn't that tight honey." she said.
i didn't realise that my sleeves rolled up some and when she pulled away from the hug she saw my arms. some scars and a lot of open cuts from my last relapse.
"oh, honey. come inside." she said as she welcomed me in. i took my shoes off as i entered.
apparently will had heard joyce talk to someone so he came downstairs.
he didn't recognise me at first i think but then it registered in his brain.
"mike?" he said as he came towards me and was about to give me a hug
"not too tight." joyce said quickly.
"i-its f-fine mrs. byers." i said. my stutter has gotten better but i still have it.
will gave me a hug, not too tightly as mrs. byers said, but i did hug him back and was almost about to cry.
"what brings you back here." will said after some silence.
"i-i miss yo-you a-and i still love you. s-so much." i admitted.
"mike-"
"look i know you don't like me back but i wanna tell you that i have loved you sin-" i was cut off with a pair of lips coming to contact with mine. i kissed back after i realised what was happening.
it was the best feeling in the world, for that moment i forgot everything that happened and i was just worried about the boy i was finally kissing.
when we broke the kiss i started crying.
"what's wrong? was it bad?" will said in fear.
"n-no i-its ju-just.." i stopped talking cause he looked really worried, "wh-whats wrong?"
"what the hell happened to your arms mike?" will said.
"life happened." i said without stuttering.
"im just gonna go, i have been here long enough." joyce said. me and will turning red because she was there the whole time.
"mike," will whispered, "what happened, are you okay." his face is full of worry.
i told him everything, it took a while longer than it would have if i didn't have a stutter but that's something i can't really change. after i told him everything we were both in tears.
"im so sorry, mike. i never never meant to hurt you."
i love this boy so much, that i accepted the apology, but told him that i don't think we can date but i'll still love him and i walked out the door.
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take me back to the day we met | byler
Fanfictionever since me and will met, so since we were 5, we spent a lot of time together. our friendship was so strong it was practically unbreakable, or so we thought. ever since that day, we stopped talking. i feel like shit, 4 years later.
