Jeremiah and Belly | You're my Best Friend

Chapter Six: The Next Day.

     The next morning I wake up to the birds singing and the sun beaming through my white satin curtains. It's so beautiful out that I almost forget about last night. Except I don't. Obviously I don't. How could I?

     I'm nervous walking downstairs, because I get nervous about confrontation. And I just know there is a conversation to be had about Jeremiah and I kissing last night. Wait... What if he just wants to be friends and it was a moment of weakness... No.. That couldn't happen, he kissed me, right? I make it downstairs and luckily I'm greeted with the whole family. I wouldn't be surprised if someone saw us last night. The whole family, except Jeremiah. Weird, he is always the first one up. When I walk to the table and sit down, Susannah and my Mom exchange looks. "So..." My mom starts. "How'd you make out last night?". What.. She saw us?! Susannah and her immediately burst out in a giggle fit and I can't help smile. I am upset about it though. "You guys saw that?!" I exclaim. "Saw what," Steven starts. "Your makeout sesh with Jere?". I cock my head towards him. "STEVEN!" I yell, as I throw a muffin at his head, which he so promptly throws back. I see the smile fade off of Conrad's face. "Why were you guys kissing anyway? Doesn't Jere know I'll kill him?" Steven asks me. I don't really know the answer to his first question. "I don't know, and I don't know." I answer as I take a bite of my projectile muffin. Conrad clears his throat. "A kiss like that you think you'd know." He says rudely as he practically throws his glass in the sink and storms upstairs, almost bumping into Jeremiah coming the other direction. I immediately cock my head back facing in front of me and look at the counter. The moms senses the tension. "I think it's great." My mom says as her and Susannah quickly exit the kitchen. My mom pops back in and gestures for Steven to leave too. He sighs and stumbled out of the kitchen, leaving Jeremiah and I alone.

     Jeremiah sits down next to me and faces me, while I'm still facing in front. I'm shocked when he doesn't say anything. I finally turn to face him. "Hey." I say. "Morning Bells." He replies, completely normally. Well honestly, I'm not surprised. I wouldn't expect Jeremiah to be nervous around me after last night. He just isn't like that. "So...." I start, nervously. He looks at me confused. "So...?" He asks. Does he really not know what I was getting at? "I think we should talk about last night." I finally say. He makes a confused face. "Oh!" Jeremiah says. "My cool fireworks?" He asks me. "Good one." I say as I laugh. "Come on I meant about how we kissed.". I blurt out. Wow I didn't think of myself to be that brave. He looks confused and almost chokes on his cereal. My face falls. "Oh..." He starts. He hesitates for a little bit before finally answering. "I don't think we need to make a big deal about it.". I feel my face fall. I feel the tears behind my eyes wanting to push through. I feel like I'm gonna be sick. Jeremiah sees the look on my face and then starts to talk again, but I interrupt him. "I-it's fine." I quickly say before I run upstairs to my room. "Bells!" Jeremiah yells out behind me. I don't even make an effort to stop. I slam my bedroom door behind me and the tear fest starts.

     I am sitting on my bed, crying my eyes out. I didn't even know I wanted something with Jeremiah until last night. He stole my first kiss. Which I was okay with until I found out we were "not making a big deal out of it.". God I'm so stupid. Jeremiah always does this. He says all the time. He just likes to kiss and that's it. I just never thought he would be "just" kissing me. I thought if we kissed, that would be the one that stuck. I can't believe him. I look at my phone and realize I've been up here 3 hours, and that I missed a deb rehersal. Who cares anymore, right? I decide to text Taylor. I have barely talked to her since my birthday, and I really need a best friend right now. And not the one that kissed me. I don't want to bother her, but I still text her a whole paragraph. "Taylor, hi. I know we haven't talked much in the past week but I really need you. A whole lot has happened since you left. I mean, well, Jeremiah kissed me last night. My first real kiss. And I was happy about it. I thought that, I don't know, maybe we could be something. But he said he doesn't want to make it a big deal. He stole my first kiss and aparently it's not a big deal? Anyway, text me back when you can.". And, send. Maybe I shit on Jere too much in that paragraph. I mean, I really didn't stop to think about how he is feeling. Maybe he kissed me because he was drunk, and doesn't really have feelings for me. Or maybe he kissed me because he thought I wanted to kiss him and he was making me happy. Either way, it's kind of messed up. I snap out of my thoughts when I feel my phone vibrating. Taylor is calling.
B:Hi Taylor.
T:Belly, Oh, my god! What happened while I was gone??
B:Well... A lot.
T: You kissed Jeremiah?!
B: Yes. Well, no. He kissed me.
T: Oh my god this is amazing!
B: What?
T: Come on! He finally got you to take your eyes off of Conrad, right.
B: Well.. Yeah I guess-
T: Then this is great.
B: Did you hear the part about him saying he didn't wanna make a big deal out of it? He stole my first kiss and doesnt even plan on asking me out.
T: So?! You ask him out!
B: No Taylor! He obviously doesn't like me that way, I can't force him to!
T: But do you like him?
B: I mean... I don't know.. I think so..
T: And did he kiss you? Yes or no?
B: Yes, he did b-
T: So he obviously likes you back!
B: Bye Taylor...
T: TEAM JELL-

She starts as I hang up. Is she right? Does he really like me?

"Belly!!!" I hear my Mom yell from down stairs. "Belly, your driver's test is in 30 minutes we have to go!" She shouts. Oh my gosh. I completely forgot about that... My driver's test. I slam open my door and sprint downstairs. My Mom makes a weird face when she sees me. She touches my puffy red eyes. "Have you been crying?" I notice Jeremiah sitting on the couch behind me. He's about to get up to talk. I don't know what to do, so I grab my Mom's arm and sprint outside to the car, to avoid further confrontation. "What was that Belly?!" She shouts at me. "I'm sorry Mom, just dont wanna be late." She rolls her eyes, but notices the look of sadness on my face when I see Jeremiah run out the door and watch us back out. My Mom looks over. "I take it your conversation didn't go too well?" She asks me. I shake my head. She puts a hand on my shoulder. "I'm sorry sweetie. I really wanted this for you too.". "Yeah..." I say. You'd think since I am on my way to my driver's test that my mom would allow me to drive there. But nope. I sit in the passenger's seat, staring out the window in agony. I lift up my Jelly necklace from Jeremiah. My Mom sees it. "When did you get this?" She asks me. I hesitate. "Jeremiah gave it to me." I answer. I finally realize that even if Jeremiah doesn't want to be more than friends, he is my friend. My best friend at that. And I need to stop burdening myself with the fact that we aren't together. For once all day, I don't feel like crying. Because like I said before, Jeremiah and I will always love eachother.