Enemies to lovers | JADEN WALTON |

Dear diary🤍

Repost as it messed up the chapters

I barge into jadens room he had no right to do that to me yesterday. But he wasn't there. i sit down on the corner of his bed waiting for him to get here. I quickly grew bored and started looking around his room. i grimaced at the decoration when my eyes landed on a little blue book in front of me. I try my best to resist opening it. That's a lie. I open the book and flip through the pages, expecting it to be some old school book but to my surprise it's a diary. I chuckle to myself and am about to close the book when I come across his latest entry. Again I don't try very hard to look away and soon get lost in the words,

What is the saying? if you love something let it go? Well if that's true I'm the strongest willed person I know. I each day I look into her big beautiful eyes and tell her how much I hate her, I how much I cant stand the sight of her. Even though I know those words arent true. I listen to her as she tells me how much she despises me and even though it chips my soul away with every word. I always keep pretending because I know ill never be enough for her. not when her hate for me is so strong.

I stare in shock at what I just read................. He loves me? I didn't understand how could he lie to my face. Each day he made me believe he hated me. I hear footsteps run up the stairs. Im quick to shut his diary and shake the shocked expression off my face. I hate him. There is no shared love I could never.

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"Omg y/n just go away it's been a long day and I just want to relax ok so leave" jaden barged into his room. I tried my best to remain calm. And act normal. He hadn't been suspicious yet but if I didn't leave right now and walk out the door he was pointing at he could possibly catch on soon. I couldn't help but look at jaden in a different way. Like someone had taken out my eyes and placed there eyes in my sockets instead. It's almost as if I was viewing jaden from the perspective of every girl in school when they see him in the hallways. Eyes glossed over and almost drooling at the sight of him.

I new I definitely wasn't drooling though. And I knew that I still had much a dislike to jaden. But something had changed,a difference in the air surrounding me.

"Earth to y/n" jaden said waving his arm all up in my face. I pushed his arm away from how close it was hanging in front of my nose and stood up . I couldn't get ahead of my self. That diary entry wasn't even probably about me. Didn't jayla say he does that to every girl now. I mean a lot of girls have entered his so called life, that he didn't want them to enter. The diary entry could be about any one of them. Oh my gosh how did I believe it was me.

I then remembered the reason I walked into his room. And gained composure. I took a big breath in.

"You know you and no right to do that to me yesterday. All I was being was being nice so next time treat a girl with respect please" my words didn't come out as powerful as intended. In fact the last few words were practically in audible.

There's still a slight little piece of hope that jaden dosent hate me. I don't care what he thinks anymore I'm just sick of the constant arguing.

I stormed out of his room making sure to shut the door extremely loud to prove a point of some sort.

Jadens pov
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She left. God if only she knew how much I hated my self yesterday. As of yesterday I realised I was confused. I was mixing up my feelings. After the whole Ava scandal I had been confusing my emotions alot and turning them in to anger. In fact I didn't hate y/n. I wrote a diary entry last night it was very poetic it summed up everything perfectly. If only I could read it to her.

Ahhhhh omg I love this chapter and have had the first bit sitting in my drafts for ages so I'm very excited to post.