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10 | baby love

"baby love, my baby love
I need you, oh how I need you
But all you do is treat me bad
Break my heart and leave me sad
Tell me, what did I do wrong?
To make you stay away so long?"

~

You sit on the couch, staring at the box with a blank expression.

It had never crossed your mind. It's been what, a week and a half at most? There's no way, it can't be...

Unless it was a month ago, the first time he came back...

What if...

He'd be forced to stay by your side. That is if he would even want the kid... what if he makes you abort it? Were you even ready for a kid? Emotionally, physically, or finical wise? You were only so young.

Thoughts flooded your mind and left as quickly as they came. All these thoughts made you sick. But was it really the thought that was making you sick? Or the baby?

Would we live here? Would Killua move out? Would he even stay and be a father? What would happen to Kurapika?

Why did I have to be Jess' kid? 

You knew he never wanted kids, it was never part of the plan. But nothing that happened in the past months had ever been part of the plan.

One thing you knew for sure was that you didn't want to be a single mother. You didn't want your kid growing up without a father figure, you didn't want to curse your kid with what you had lived with. But even if you were pregnant, you would want to use it as an excuse to guilt Jess into staying with you, but would that even make him fall in love with you again? Would he just do it because he feels like he's obligated to? And not out of pure love?

You were certain that there wasn't any love left in him. At least not for you, anyways

But there was still always a chance that you weren't pregnant. While it did relieve you to know that there was a possibility, you still felt a pang of sadness. 

Growing up, you always imagined being a mom. You still think about having kids, just not now or maybe not even with him.

You continue to stare at the box as if it would just disappear and you'd wake up, in Kurapika's arms again, safe and sound from any harm because he was there, holding you so delicately, like a china doll that'd break if held any firmer.

After what seemed like hours, you finally submitted and accepted the inevitable. You stood up with weak legs and grabbed the box, and slowly made your way to the bathroom, your heart beating in your ears. You felt like you weren't even awake... not being able to process reality yet. You would soon.

You sat on the toilet and opened the box, and slowly pulled out the test. You'd never seen one in real life. You frowned looking down at it, and every movement you made felt surreal. 

~

You eye the test sitting on the bathroom counter as you wash your hands, anxiously waiting for a stupid pink line that may or may not show up. The box said it would take 3-5 minutes, but seconds felt like minutes, and you were itching to just know whether or not your life would be derailed in a second.

Who would you even tell first? Who would you call? And, who even got you the test in the first place? You figured it would most likely be Killua since he was the only one who knew what happened between the two of you, unless... he told Kurapika and he bought it himself. Maybe he told Killua about last night? But wasn't Killua at Gon's apartment last night? Why would he be home? But how would Kurapika get into the apartment if he wasn't home? You wanted to call him and asked what happened. So many questions...

You walked back to your room with weak legs in search of your phone, only to find it dead. You groaned and threw it back on the bed in frustration, not even bothering to charge it. Nothing was going your way. The last time you remember being on it was when Kurapika texted you about the club, which was last night. 

You walk back into the bathroom, the wait time was over. You anxiously peek over at the counter, and...

~

Kurapika found himself browsing through the baby section of Target, frequently looking back at the long list of things he needed to get for the sudden news. He didn't realize how expensive diapers were. But he was a bit excited, nonetheless. He'd never thought he'd find himself shopping in this section so soon in his life...

He felt the back pocket of his jeans vibrate, and he pulls out his phone and picked up the call. 

"Hey, how ya feelin'?" He asks into the phone, placing it between his neck and shoulder so he would be able to browse at the baby clothes.

"So sick... but I'd feel much better if you were here~"

"Don't worry, I'll be back soon."

"Good. Just wanted to know how the baby shopping was going"

"Didn't know how expensive diapers were, thought they were like the same cost as like toilet paper..." Kurapika bashfully admits. He was smart, when it came to most things. 

The voice on the other side of the call giggles.

"Haha, seriously? That's so silly. Well, see you soon, Kurapika! Thanks so much for doing this. I'm so glad you're here for me."

"Sure, of course. See you soon, Mina"

~

He forgot how warm the south gets, even at the beginning of April. 

He dreaded coming back to South Carolina when Mina called him, about a month ago, revealing that she was pregnant with Kurapika's baby, and had actually been for a couple of months. About 5. It was only then she had just found out after she took a test.

His world was turned upside down in a matter of minutes. Nothing could describe what he felt the moment he found out- it was a weird mix of shock, disbelief, surreality, and joy. He'd always wanted kids. Especially since his family was robbed of him at such a young age. 

But this news was just so, out of the blue, so random...

Why had not told him sooner?

But he knew Mina, this was something he supposed she would do...

But he didn't want to come back to South Carolina and Mina, but more like, he felt like he had to. He was obligated too. It would make him a real dick if he found out his ex was pregnant with his baby and just leave her on her own.

But the last thing he wanted to do was leave you by yourself.

Kurapika felt he had a real connection with you, that being around you just felt so easy and natural, like he didn't have to pretend to be someone else around you. Maybe because he met you when he was at his most vulnerable. Perhaps he could say he even... loved you

He walks out of Target, having spent well over $200 on baby things. It was starting to get dark out, and the stars we slightly visible. They reminded Kurapika of that night... when he held you tight and told you everything would be alright. He thought you were so... pretty, when you cried. Your eyes looked like a clear night sky, and your tears like pure stardust.

And for a split second, he wished he was shopping for your baby, and not for Mina's.

He would only let himself think that for just this night.

Just this night.