Dear Everyone And Anyone That Reads This

Seventh Entry

Heyo everyone and anyone who reads this! I don't know why some people are so rude! So I have a few dating apps because single life isn't really for me. Anyways I added someones snapchat from their profile. They added me back and asked what I looked like.

I sent them a picture of just my face and she replied "I'm good, chubster". I then blocked her about 2 minutes ago. I'm bothered by her comment not because I am self conscious. I am bothered because people should never treat another person with such rudeness. Instead she could have replied with 'not my type' and that would be the end of it.

Don't get me wrong though as I have insecurities so at times I am self conscious. Lately though I haven't been giving too much of a fuck about others opinions of me. To each their own, but come on! It's 2022 and we still have people who are rude to others because they can be. I just hope someday that nobody treats her the way I was treated by her.

Time to move on now! So last night my older sister spent the night. I got high while we were watching movies. The thing about me getting high is I talk about anything with the truth and the whole truth only. I also don't have any boudries about any topic.

Last night we had talked about what I am looking for in my next relationship. I had told her how I found every person beautiful until they prove me wrong. Which is what I just portrayed in my earlier paragraphs. I don't care about eye or hair color. How much they weigh or their height, doesn't matter to me!

I only find them beautiful when I first see them. When we start talking and I find that they are beautiful in the inside too it just makes them a whole lot of a different kind of beautiful! I am not really sure however if I will be beautiful to them, on the inside. I have so much going on in my head and I'm afraid to say the wrong things. I am also not really a looker like other women.

I told my sister how I want to be with someone who is kind, shows interest. They can play video games, but if I want it to be just us talking then they would give me their full attention. Of course there is gonna be times where I will watch them play video games as long as the game they are playing is any good. Which I don't have high standards of. I don't know if I should ask anything more.

I do ask that my next partner will put in as much effort as I do in the relationship. Keeping my fingers crossed that someday I will meet this person soon. I promise to give my all, be loyal, and to try everything I can to make them happy when they are down or be their shoulder to lean on. I guess that is all I really needed to say for this entry. I will write to you soon!

Love~Somebody