Michaels POV
"Bullshit" I say and hang up the phone
19 June
I walk into the room,
"God I hope shailene will be okay!" I whisper to myself
"I think she might be fine," shailene says opening her eyes, I didn't think she heard me.
"Michael, I need to speak with you" Dr Martin says seriously
"Sure" I say very concerned
I kiss shailene and walk out the door
"We ran some tests, and. well" Dr Martin stops, looks at his feet and then at me. "Shailene has less than a week to live" he says
I gasp, I can't breathe. I want to run away, anywhere! ANYWHERE! Here we go, I just love panic attacks (sarcasm). My heart starts beating fast and I start to hyperventilate, my vision is blacking out, I am shaking like crazy!
I run into the bathroom and throw up, fun! I lean up against the door and cry,
"Why me?" I yell "I love her too much!" I scream
"Michael!" Shailene yells,
I unlock the door and see shailene sitting up in her bed
"What's wrong?" She says
"Umm err..... Nothing" I say trying to hide.
"Cmon there is something up, you have been crying and screaming, what's up?" She knows me too well. I break down and have a mini panic attack,
"Sshhhh it's okay, it's okay," Shailene says, I feel so bad for her, she is wasting her time with me.
"Shailene the doctor had bad news" I say, she looks at me,
"Do I really want to know?" She asks me,
"You don't, but you have to know" I whisper "I love you and would give the world for you" I kiss her forehead "you have less than.... A-a-a week to l-live" my voice cracks,
Shailene bursts into tears,
"I cant believe it! I'm sorry, I shouldn't have put you through all of this!" She yells,
"I'm glad you put me through this, I enjoyed looking at your face, stroking your hair, kissing your soft lips." I whisper
24 June
Michael POV
"I love you so much," I say to Shailene who is very weak
"I love you too," she says back
"Michael we need to talk" dr Martin says quietly
"Last time you said that I heard the worst news of my life, I hope this is better" I say
"Okay Michael we need to, put Shailene, to sleep, forever" he says
"Fuck you" I yell annoyed, I storm out and go to my car.
I drive home and run into my room
"FUCK EVERYONE! I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE!" I grab out a pen and paper and start to write my suicide Note, it took me a good 2 hours to get it perfect
Shailene, I love you, and would die without you, so that's what I'm going to do. You have helped me through so much. Even though you won't read this, I am still writing it.
I will soon be a faded memory, my corpse lying on the cold tile bathroom floor. The pain I felt, in my blood, my face, and soul will soon be demolished, it will stay here, on earth. Death is not a scary thing, it's inviting, like a breeze on a warm summers day.
I watched you going home, every day, every single day. when I saw you, I couldn't believe the beauty, how perfect you were. You were like a rose petal, soft and delicate but strong and comforting.
You were in my math and art class, I would watch you draw in your notepad in art, sketching, amazing people, animals and even just patterns. You would draw in your math book, and even then you were amazing. You drew through your pain, I could tell.
Your eyes were hazel, an array of beautiful colours, greens yellow and Browns, they were so beautiful, but they were lifeless. sad. You always wore a long sleeve, but every now and then your sleeve would slip and I got a glimpse of who you really were, a depressed lonely girl, who needed more, you needed something to live for. I thought that I had the guts to ask you out, I never got to doing it, every time I saw you, I nearly died, if looks could kill. Now I won't have to die every time I see you. I was deteriorating, you are my life, you are my soul, my everything. And now that your gone, I don't have anyone to live for, no one will care whether I'm standing in front of them or floating above them. No one gives a shit but you! I'll tell you all about it when I see you again.
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Okay only like 1-3 chapters left..... Sorry for the crappy suicide note... Did anyone get the song reference? It is shailenes favourite song (shailene is a fictional character) okay TYASM FOR 1.7 k ☺️ I love you all so much! Do u want me to put a picture of shailene and or Michael for the chapter picture? Anyways comment and like and follow so yeah..... Any questions I will answer them!
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Teen FictionOne teen who is emotionally unstable, who is suffering from depression and domestic violence, finds the love of her life? 16 year old Shailene has a hard time fitting in at home and school, she is self-conscious and has anxiety. How will she find he...
