Much Like Saying 'I Love You'

Admire.

1170 WORDS.

*HIGH*

After a while, for no reason other than being high we were all giggling messes. Telling half a joke and not being able to finish it because we were laughing.

"Tori, You didn't tell me your mom was so cool," Eddie commented. I considered telling him off for calling me Tori but I chose to ignore it and decided to smile instead.

"My mum's my best friend," I smiled and she wrapped an arm around me to hug me.

"Wow, so you have a best friend but you won't be friends with me?" Eddie questioned jokingly. I laughed.

"Who said anything about being friends?" I joked back making us all laugh. "Eddie says it all the time I'm just quoting him," I explained to my mum but she hummed, I knew instantly she didn't believe me, it made me laugh a little harder.

"I've never said that a day in my life," Eddie lied, badly on purpose. I chuckled but pretended to act offended. We laughed.

"Don't you know? Tori doesn't believe in love," My mum teased making me roll my eyes.

"Oh, I know." Eddie groaned making her laugh as he sounded fed up. "Her poem this morning was amazing though," He added but my mum looked at me shocked.

"You wrote a poem?" She asked making me sigh.

"It was for English class," I groaned but she gasped.

"I love your writing," She sulked making me laugh. 

"Well, you can't read it until the teachers done with it, he asked to submit it to the director board or some shit, I can't remember," I chuckled but my mum smiled widely. 

"What? That's amazing," She commented happily. We sat in silence a moment. I smiled knowing in this moment I was truly happy, something that doesn't happen a lot.

"Love. What can I tell you about love that isn't already in every movie?" Eddie started to resight as he looked up at the stars with a smile. A distant look in his eyes.

"You memorised it?" I asked shocked, whipping my head around to look at him, but he just smiled continuing to look up at the stars.

"It was beautiful," He shrugged. I looked away blushing, my mum danced on her seat a little knowing he couldn't see her. I tried not to laugh.

"Come on, I want to hear it," My mum urged making me groan.

"No," I protested. Eddie chuckled.

"I'll just get to the best part." He explained before taking a deep breath. "There's no such thing as love at first sight because love isn't real. It's a strategy to trick you into happiness." I rolled my eyes as he continued. "Love was-"

"invented by men to give a woman something to play with rather than power." My mum quoted with him and he sat up to look at her amazed like she had just read his mind.

"She says it all the time," She chuckled, and we laughed as I shook my head.

"Don't get me started on the first kiss when you're supposed to feel fireworks and butterflies in your stomach. Most people's first kiss is somewhere sleazy. They feel nothing special, all they feel is disgust from the smell of hiding behind a bin. People lie it was for privacy but in actual fact, they're too embarrassed to be seen kissing the person they're kissing. Love is a rip-off. People celebrate Valentine's day and idolise it just to be let down just like every other day of the year. So in conclusion, this poem is about nothing. This poem might as well be about a spec of dust floating in a never-ending universe. Pointless. A waste of time. And a waste of breath. Much like saying I love you." Eddie finished. I stared at his side profile as he smiled at the stars. He listens to me and hears me. I held my breath slightly, feeling the butterflies in my stomach I never believed were true.

"I got butterflies when I first kissed your dad but that could have just been you getting ready to be made," She joked making me wince and groan. She laughed like it was hilarious. Eddie laughed along with her.

"That's disgusting," I exclaimed over their laughter. I rolled my eyes but I was truly happy they were getting along. They seem like best friends already.

The doorbell rang instantly silencing them. They both rushed to get up. I laughed as they seemed to mirror each other.

"I'll get the food," My mum cheered.

"I'll get the drinks," Eddie called back quickly grabbing our glasses to follow her inside, the both of them practically running.

"I'll get comfy," I added before I heard them both laugh. I smiled victoriously that I got a laugh out of them. My mum sat down first with an evil chuckle. Eddie groaned. I feel so spaced out like this is an alternate universe where Eddie and my mum are the same as me and my mum. Eddie put our glasses on the table while my mum handed out the pizzas. I happily sat here accepting the gifts. We ate, continued to talk and had a good time. We finished up and my mum rubbed her arms showing she was cold, she yawned and cracked her neck. I smiled at her, my eyes a little heavy as I was also a little tired. Being high can be exhausting sometimes. Eddie chuckled lightly. "I can go if you're both wanting to go to bed?" Eddie asked but my mum shook her head.

"You can't drive home, you're probably still high. Why don't you just stay the night?" She asked and he seemed to look at me for permission. I chuckled softly before shrugging. He smiled slightly.

"If that's okay?" He seemed to question so my mum smiled.

"I can ring your parents or something so they know where you are," She suggested but he shook his head.

"I live with my uncle and he works nights, he won't know I'm gone." He explained so my mum nodded. She rubbed her eyes, yawning once again.

"Good night," She sang getting up from her seat and heading inside. I chuckled but was a little nervous that Eddie and I were alone. He copied my actions and rested his head back to look at the stars.

"Your mom is really cool," He commented making me smile.

"Yeah, I can tell her anything," I shrugged and he seemed to chuckle.

"I wish I had that," He replied distantly. I turned my head to look at him confused. He seemed to hesitate to look at me but did and I could instantly see he was a little sad. I smiled sympathetically. I don't know why he's sad but I want to make him feel better.

"You can tell me anything," I shrugged making him smile. He nodded before looking back at the stars. We sat in silence for a while, I smiled feeling like he understood me a little better.