30 days writing

Day 1: describe your personality

Well, hi there. My name's Victoria, but you can call me Vicky. If you have read my story called "Ella" (in spanish), please don't judge me. I didn't want to introduce myself on the description because I want you to know me by reading this.

So I was scrolling on pinterest and I saw this image that said: the 30 day writing challenge, and I didn't doubt for a second to do it, (between you and me, I don't know if I'm going to finish it). Basically I'm gonna write stuff about myself or my opinions in 30 days. I won't promise you this is going to be entretaining for everyone, some chapters may be interesting and some of them may not be that interesting.

Anyway, it's day 1 and what I have to talk about is my personality. In my opinion, that tittle sounds cool, but maybe it isn't, if I'm honest.

I never really knew how to describe my personality, and I still don't know how to, to this day. Characters in movies and books have always very especific taste and opinions, but I don't. I'm a real person, so I'm probably not that cool.

Well, I am showing a very pesimist behaviour here so I'll start with the good qualities that I have. I am sentimental, and yes, that is a good thing. There's this band I like that has a song that says: I ain't ashamed in the fact that I'm sensitive, I belive that it is the perfect adjective. I used to be ashamed of being sensitive, and now I am not exaclty proud of it but I just don't care that much. I prefer being sensitive that a sociopath that doesn't have feelings about anything.

You know, I don't want to write too much about myself because there are other days were I have to say 30 facts about me and stuff like that so I don't want to say too much.

I think I am romantic too. I think that If I were in one of those relationships that only consists of sex and in which there were no commitments, I would end up having romantic feelings for the other person. I can catch feeling very quickly. However, I'm not a big fan of the classic romantic stuff, like going to the movies or picnics... It kind of depends on the plan but I really like originality.

When something is trending like, for example, a type of clothing, I could never wear that even if I like it. When the corsets strated to become trending I hated them. I think they're really cool and pretty but the fact that everyone's wearing them is exhausting.

I could say I'm shy as well, not as much as I used to be, though. I don't consider myself an extrovert.

I don't like: social media, gum, make up, people that try to act and look tough, growing up...

I like: skiing (eventhough I am not perfect at it), music, reading, hanging out with my friends, traveling, curly hair...

I really don't know what else to say, and personality is a very general concept. Imagine how it is going to be when I have to talk about a specific thing. So what am I going to do now? Simple, write little things about myself.

-MY PERSONAL STRENGHTS

Something that some people told me is that I act very well in panic situations. There was this time were my dog got stuck in our garden and he was chocking with his collar. My sister kept crying and talking to my dog telling him how much she loves him and all. What I did was think about ways to solve the problem and I finally saved him.

Also, I can read people's intentions. I know it sounds dumb, like if someone comes to you in a specific way you can know what they want too, but I'm talking deeper. This friend of my dad's once told me that there were a lot of dumb girls out there, dumb girls that boys could easily use and play with. He told me that I was not one of them, that I could read people's intentions and know how to act.

That really got me thinking and I was so happy that someone could see that in me.

-MY PERSONAL WEAKNESSES

I am too hard on myself, but not for good. Most of the times I get mad with myself for doing something bad when I didn't even put any effort on it. For example, when I have a bad grade I get mad with myself when I know that I didn't study.

I also think too much. As I said before I always read people's intentions, so when a thing that is slighlty out of normal happens to me I start thinking about it too much and then I give myself an idea that is not true. Like this time that a guy showed interest for me and then he told me he thought another girl was pretty, I know it's dumb but I got so stressed over that. Guys don't usually give me attention (that is the first and only time a guy did) so I thought about it too much, thinking that he got tired of me or that he got to know me a bit and then he realised I was horrible. I was blinded by hate, hate over myself.

Turns out he was trying to make me jealous, and he did.

-MY GREATEST FEAR

Fear of abandonment. I am very scared of someone abandoning me, I get attached to people very easily for some reason and the fact that they can leave and get out of my life whenever they want is just horrible.

I also fear jellyfish, a lot. People tell me it's stupid, there are a lot of other animals that are worse but I really really can't stand jellyfish. People also tell me: if you see a jellyfish you get out of the water and that's it. I know, but that doesn't change anyhting. There are obviously a bunch of other animals that I am also scared of, but if you ask anyone who knows me well they will tell you I hate jellyfish. I think that maybe if someday a jellyfish stings me my fear will go away a bit.

Well, guys, It's 23:00 and that is very late for me so I will go to sleep now. I am sorry that this was a very short chapter, but the challenge is clear: 1 day = 1 chapter.

I hope you got to know me a bit and I'll see you soon.

(20/7/2022)