Again • Darren Espanto {AMNESIA Book 2}

Chapter 30 - Fears

-Bella's POV-

Some part of me wanted to run away, part of me wanted to scream, part of me wanted to cry, part of me just wanted to blame him. But where am I now? Standing right in front of him, after what? 9 years?!

Those 9 years were full of pain and curiosity, wanting to know where he's been, part of me wants to stab him, but a huge part of me just wants to cry and run into his arms and say 'I've missed you dad.'

But no, my anger is taking over me. 9 years and he decides to come back just now?!

"What are you doing here 'dad'?" I said as Ibgritted my teeth, emphasizing the 'dad' part.

"Bella, princess I- don't call me that anymore!" I cut him off, my tears about to stream down my face.

"Let me explain-"

"That what?! That you don't love us anymore and you'll leave us for good? I know you won't come back but you can't just leave and expect that when you come back everything will be okay again!" I cried. I was furious. "Dad, so much has happened. You weren't even here! I thought you said you'd be here when I walk down the aisle, you'd be here to hold your grandkids, you'd be here to witness my firsts! What happened to all those promises?!"

He just hugged me and to be completely honest, although I was mad at him, I did miss those hugs he used to give me. I missed my dad so much. "Bella honey, listen up alright? It's perfectly fine of you to be so mad at me, I understand that, but I hope you know that I love you and I will never stop loving you, your sister, and your brother. I love you all so much. You're a mom now, right? As parents, we have to make lots of sacrifices. You should know that." I nodded.

"You have an older brother, which is why I was gone for 9 years. I spent time with your brother." He told me. Okay now what the hell?! I have an older brother from another woman?!

"I thought mom was the only one dad? I thought your heart only belonged to her?!" I pointed at my mom who was being comforted by Hayley and Quentin.

"It was a long story Ysa, how your older brother just... yeah. But I love your mom just as much as I love you guys, you're my whole world."

"Come on dad that's plain bullsh*t! I need a reason, a real one!" I sniffed, wiping my tears. "I don't want any more lies! If you love the other family then stick with them!"

"I came back cause I love you guys." He explained and I just nodded.

This is it. I'm still mad, but I missed him. He's still my dad, he's still family. "Why did you leave me, us?" I hugged him then he hugged me back.

"Bella honey, I have many other responsibilities aside from you guys. A person's life will never be centered on only one certain thing. We people live for many different reasons. You know mine right?"

"I missed you!"

"I did too Bella, but I have something to tell you and you're gonna have to stay calm okay? Don't hate me for life please? And by the way, hello Darren! Take care of them, okay?"

"Hey tito!" Darren just raised his hand then went back to the kids.

"Alright-" I was going to react but then I saw someone come in.

Oh dammit.

-Darren's POV-

As Bella and her dad were fighting, I had to explain it to the four kids every now and then as they were asking me what was going on.

I saw her crying, and trust me, it took everything in me not to cry or run to her and just take her home. Having to see her in pain kills me inside.