Heart That Drips In Gold

Tears of Gold

POV: Em

He let me in. It hurt every inch of me seeing the Mammon in front of me. So broken...defeated...and what he said shattered my heart in a second. "I can't do this anymore...it hurts Em" his voice trembled and I managed to catch the tears flowing down his face. I felt my breath hitch and I spoke. "Mams...what do you mean you can't?" I asked hoping for any answer. He shifted his weight and a broken laugh left his lips. He's literally falling apart in front of me and I can't do jack shit. "Living...I  just can't do it anymore!" His voice now raised and full of pain. We locked eyes for a second and he shook his head. "Those words...its like getting stabbed in the chest! The punishments for shit I DIDN'T DO!"  he was getting louder as he let out what he must of been holding in for a long time. All I could do was listen and watch.

"WHY? I'M WORTHLESS! WHY DID YOU CHOSE ME? I DON'T DESERVE YOU! I DON'T DESERVE ANYTHING!" He screamed, his demon form coming out without his knowledge, his emotions raw and running rapid. I get it...He's believing what he gets told by the others. It as become his truth...when it's far from it. His knees buckled as he dropped to the floor, hard sobs escaping. I got up slowly and moved cautiously toward him. "Mammon...you deserve the world..why can't you see that?" I spoke softly. Tears of my own forming. He shook his head and kept repeating 'no'. "You are s much more, you have a heart of gold Mammon, you are always there for your brothers....always there for me! You always come to my rescue!" I proceeded to get closer to him. He kept his head in his hand, still crying, but I knew he was listening to my words. "You are smart, and kind, always makes me laugh, takes me on fun adventures...I chose you because I love you Mammon..." my voice trembled as I finally reach him. I carefully took his hands in mine. That's when he looked up at me, his demon form slowly disappearing. "Y-You...love me?" His voice small. I nodded and gave him a smile, my tears finally spilling over.

I hated seeing him like this. But I know now this was all the pain he had built and bottled up. If he would of told his brothers, they wouldn't take him seriously or made fun of him. We stared at one another for a minute, tears both falling down our faces. He suddenly moved closer and placed his lips on mine. My eyes went wide shocked and kissed him back, his lips soft but firm. He took his hands from mine and held my face as he deepened the kiss. I melted into the touch. He meant so much to me. I meant so much to him. All his sadness and pain I wanted to take from him. We pulled away, both of our faces flushed. I know he put on that tsundere act, but it always falters around me. I noticed his hand was all cut up and swollen. My heart ached as I took it and held it gently to my chest. He looked down a bit embarrassed. "Mammon...please stop hurting yourself...if you can't handle something on your own...I'll always be right by your side okay?" I smiled softly. He looked up and nodded before whispering out "I love you Em.."

We both sat there until he got up a bit wobbly and offered to help me up. I took his hand and stretched out my back. I checked my D.D.D, fuck it was already 11pm. He looked pretty much exhausted. "You should sleep Mams...I should probably head to bed as well" I smiled tiredly. He paused and fidgeted with the hem of his shirt. "Uhm...would you mind staying with me tonight? I mean ya don't hafta of course" he blushed a bit looking away. Ah there he is...I smiled and sighed. "If The GREAT Mammon would have me, I would love to stay.."I walked over to him and over to his bed. We both proceeded to lay down and I turned to get comfy. I felt his arm streak around my waist and I smiled letting him do it. I lightly traced circled on the top of his hand and I felt his head bury into my shoulders. Soft snores soon come from behind me. I hummed lightly also drifting off to sleep.

POV: Mammon

They loved me...They really loved me. I kissed them. It felt so nice...It felt so right...You picked me. You believed in me. When nobody else gave me the time of day. All the weight on my back lessened as they let me hold them in my arms. All the pain felt less heavy. They took some of my pain and carried it with them. As I did with theirs. They mean the world to me. They walked into my life and turned it all upside down. This hole that was eating away at me was finally filling back up. Em traced little comforting circles on the top of my hurt hand as I felt the pull of sleep drag me down. I pressed my face into their back. Inhaling their comforting scent. Just them...in my arms...