Heart That Drips In Gold

On the Other Side of The Coin

POV: Lucifer

I sat across from my younger brother. It hurt how ridged he was just sitting there. It was like he was scared of me. Was he? I tried to relax my normal haughty vibe. I just wanted to talk to him. Get a feel on what's going on in that head of his. "Mammon, I want you to open up to me...please I want to understand what and how you are feeling" I pleaded interlacing my gloved hands together. He raised an eyebrow and let out a small chuckle. "You want to do what? Understand me? Lucifer...please spare me the act.." he just crossed his legs and leaned back into the couch. Wow he actually didn't believe me. "Mammon I am being completely serious.." I sighed a little.

The look he gave me obviously told me he didn't believe a word. "Listen...I want to make up for all the shit we put you through...You're our brother...and we neglected you so much...you became our emotional punching bag and that was cruel of us to do..." I looked at him again. All different emotions shown in his eyes.  "Seriously?...After how many centuries...it took a human...to stand up for me to show you all the bullshit you all pulled?!" His voice rose in annoyance. He sat more up right on the couch. I just sat there and looked at him. "Mam-" I started but he suddenly stood up. "Lucifer look at me! I'm a god damn mess! I can never tell whether I'm being messed with or y'all actually care about me! Between pleasing those damn witches then coming back to this actual hell hole to be bullied and punished for no damn reason!" Mammon was full on screaming now, which caught attention of Satan and Em, who were now in the doorway of my study.

"I'm trying to apologize here!" I finally yelled back. My temper being swallowed down. "No! You had so many times to see all the damage that was done to me by all of them-" he gestured to the door " and you!" He then pointed to me. When did he get in his demon form? There was such an intense hurt and anger in those blue-gold eyes. Maybe I was wrong...Maybe I was too late to help Mammon...The damage was too deep to just gloss over with apologies....Em and Satan stood and watched us...

"You just expect me to just forgive and forget cause we are FAMILY? Ha please Lucifer..." He scoffed and the pain held in my little brother's voice shook me to my core. I didn't turn into my demon form, I couldn't cause I didn't want to hurt Mammon more than he was. Fighting isn't gonna solve anything. I just crossed my arms and watched him. He was getting frustrated since I was not giving the reaction he wanted. He shook his head. "Lucifer...I used to look up to ya..I really did...but not anymore..." he went back to his regular form and tears were welled up in his eyes. "Maybe I do regret falling with you...since all I've gotten out of it was jack shit huh?" His words pierced my normally tough exterior.

He suddenly turned and pushed past me and then Satan. Em right in tow behind him, calling out his name. I lost my little brother...to our own actions and hurtful words...I covered my face and slowly sat back onto the couch. Satan was unsure what to do but I felt him come and sit next to me. He placed a reassuring hand on my knee as we sat there.

POV: Mammon

I stormed off. My vision was red. The fucking nerve he has to do that. SAY THAT! I felt Em at my heels calling my name. I just had to get to my room...then I can fall apart...I pretty much kicked in the door and threw myself onto my bed. Em panted hard and shut the door behind them. "Jesus you walk fast..." they mumbled. I just curled into myself on the bed. "Mams...what happened in there?" I felt the bed dip as they came to sit behind me. "I dun wanna talk about it right now..." I sniffled a little and aggressively wiped the tears from my eyes. Fuck they just kept coming. Em guided me into their lap and held my face. "Okay...I won't force you..When you're ready okay?" They smiled softly and stroked my cheeks with their thumbs gently. How in the hell did I deserve this human.

I closed my eyes and gave into the feeling. They hummed softly. "I do believe Lucifer was serious though, as much as you want to deny it..." I looked up at them. Em locked eyes with me. "I know it's not gonna be easy...healing from all the torture and pain...but baby steps...look at Beel...as I said they will realize that they will lose you if they don't get their shit together..." they continued and brushed my hair back and placed a kiss on my forehead. I always felt so damn drained dealing with my brothers...where did it all go to shit? Was it after the fall? Lilith's death? I had no idea...maybe Em is right...he didn't have to forgive them...like he did with Beel...his eyelids felt heavy....Em whispered in my ear, "It's okay love...go to sleep..I'm right here.." I started to doze off in their lap. Finally relaxing after what seemed like forever.