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daddy issues | taerose

( mature. trigger warning. not that much but still 🙃 )

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daddy stuck around but he wasnt present

cheated on your mom, but she never left him

first i didnt get it now i understand

headphones plugged around her eard, blasting her favourite song.

sometimes she would think maybe why she likes Daddy Issues that much is the song is too relatable for her.

staring again at the windows, her eyes slowly closing as she can feel the sadness coming in once again.

she would tell herself im fine but no.

she knows herself she isnt.

maybe the fact that all shits are going thru her life right now is making her feel this way.

just last month she knew her dad has another kid from another women.

who is the same age as hers.

how can men do this?

she would always ask herself.

how can his dad have guts to impregnate another woman, the same time as her mom?

but shit, thats just not the reason.

she also knew that her dad has multiple kids out there.

from another woman too.

she wonders, how is her mom doing?

if shes being like this, what about her mom?

i wanna kill myself

her thought all the time.

she wanna punish her dad for it, but she knows she cant.

because she has no guts to do that.

and, her mom has always teached her to respect elders.

no matter what.

her mind is going crazy, a lot of problems inside and responsibilities.

she over thinks that on every moment that her dad is with them did he not felt the guilt inside him?

does not he though or wonder too that hes breaking them by just that?

because in every munite and hour her dad spends with them, she knows that all of it was fake.

because on every single time that he tells them he loves her and her mom the guilt on his voice can still be heard.

and, only her dad will know what that feels like.

another thing she always asks, how did her dad manage to keep a secret that big from them?

how did he manage to keep his kids away from them?

did the other kids felt the same way as hers too?

maybe thats one of the reason why her dad is not always present to her life.

hes not always home and does not share that much time with her ever since she was a kid.

maybe because he has another responsibilies to handle.

at the age of 14, chaeyoung already got her first relationship.

With a guy.

she fell into a bad friend group, that she learned how to rebel.