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ROSÉ

a day has passed once again, yet you are still not here.

took too many hours for waiting but still nothing happened while i was taking the risk.

I dont know what happened suddenly when the marriage just fell apart.

Everything just happened too quick,
too quick that it feels like im living on a dream.

a dream where im not feeling like im on cloud nine.

its a dream on where i am the clouds carrying a thunder inside of me.

wanting to let out something. but yet can not

while i was at the couch, staring at the ring at my finger. I wonder if any of the words you said was all real

was it all a lie or does it comes deep inside your heart?

do you mean everything you said on our vows?

through ups and down Roseanne

you said that we will be both together even a problem has occured on our relationship.

its so funny how you were the one who said that but also the one who took my hopes up.

Im pretty sure you are much happier now.

do you?

i wanna tell you that I miss you, but i know even though i express my feelings to you it wll just never be the same.

clock ticked and 12 is now plastered on the clock.

still not here even if 8pm is your out on work.

where are you? what are you doing through all the hours that has gone through.

Are you out with somebody? or are you just too tired of me?

and finally, i saw your car outside the house.

You going out of the car, looking handsome as ever. that always make my self slumber

you entered the house with out saying anything.

tho i know, i will still be the first one to open up a conversation for the both of us.

" Hello Love, hows your day? "

i asked.

no answer

but you looked at me straight into the eye.

i wonder what has gotten into you?

" is something wrong? "

i asked once again

and no reply still.

after what i said you just go straight into the stairs to go up.

to our bedroom.

i know what its ours but its just not the same anymore. It hurts me that even at our own house i still feel unwanted.

is it because you are now much more succesfull than me?

everytime we go out, someone would always tell us you are way too out of my league.

that i dont deserve you.

is it really?

do i dont deserve you?
or you just dont deserve me?

questions would always fill my head. every time.

i started over thinking, whether maybe they are right.

You are way too out of my league.

that even tho i have your surname on my name it will still be always Park Chaeyoung.

Not Jeon Chaeyoung.

because after all thats what people know me, that is me. and they dont acknowledge me as your wife.

in the loser and you are the succesfull one.

i grew tired.

i grew tired of all the words that are thrown at me every single day.

i grew tired feeling that I just carry your name.

but even though youre making me feel like this, i know i will still come back to you.

because after all thats my job, to be with you.

to keep you safe and healthy,

to keep you happy and contented

to keep your house clean and squeaky

to keep your fridge full and not empty

and lastly, for me to believe that you will love me.

- ♥︎

hello this one is short since i want you to feel like you are reading rosies diary. hahahaha

this was short but i promise you this comes deep in my heart ! hahahaha thankyou for reading & enjoy once again ❣️